Thanks to you!

If you don't want to have me in your list of friends,why did you accept my request in the first place??????
Why are you so fickle?
Fine!! If you think i dont deserve to be your friend,then why the hell did you ask me to add you in MSN that time?????
Even though you have make my life so so miserable ever since,I never have had hatred for you,but as time goes by,your actions is somewhat testing my patience..
It is as if you are testing how far is my Love for you!
\Ok fine!! Let me confess to you that Yes!!!I still Love you as much as I always do!!
But if hatred is what you want,i CAN.
Even tho' i still Love you,I dont expect you to come back to me!I know where i stand!
You dont have to run away from me,I know where to take my leave!!

I am so pissed off and disappointed that I have to cry so much for you again !
I hate you.
You really know how to make my life so "blissful''....
Thanks.

He prove me right.

Like i said.
It is just too early.
He proves me right.
He is categorised under the typical group of guys i despise.
Thank god it is still early and I havent fall for him.
I feel like a burden off my shoulder after i decided to stop contacting him anymore.
*Relieved*

Syukur Alhamdulilah.

My 23rd.

Thanks to all my lovelies for making it an enjoyable Birthday memories for me.
Loads of msgs,phonecalls wishing me Happy Birthday...thanks people...though i am expecting it from someone but its okay if he doesnt wish me....i understand.

Anyways my days are fun filled joy and laughter.
Had a relaxing LESBO session with Bestie doing body polish&Scrub plus Bubble bath and then
Went for dinner and party with my ladies in the evening.The very next day went to JB for Karaoke and Seafood and Movie with colleagues and someone new whom i didnt expect to meet at this point of my life...he is such a gentleman but too early to say.We shall see.He is nothing near perfect... imperfections does occur but if he is sincere,its just perfect.I am not near perfection either..but he is the first guy that is volunteering himself to meet up with my Kuku aka Kak Midah and my colleagues.He scored a point for that :)


I can't wait to start my Annual leave.Going JB with bestie and her mom.Going JB again with colleagues.

Officially 23 years old ;)
A year older is a year wiser.

Alone at work.

Met up with my Beloved cuzzies recently.
Had an enjoyable night in JB.
Looking forward to another meet up soon.

Apart from that,


I'm clueless now...
At work now,sleepy,alone in the ward and feeling so so cold..brrr..

Lonely....i am so lonely..i have nobody to call my own.....tsk tsk..
Oh pls turn the clock to 730am pls..i want to go home and sleep!! I'm working again the next morning..damn!

Nothing Else.

Nothing else but working.
I am very tired and my back hurts.
Infact,my whole body is aching.
Do nurses have to be suffering like this..?
Sigh~

Its starting to get even busy-er for me.
Lots of stuffs coming up.
Birthday,Ramadhan and Syawal too.
I don't usually celebrate my Bday but since my colleague have wanted to celebrate it,why not rite.
My girls are planning to party too.But i guess we could party on the 23rd instead? Coz' i will be in JB for the whole day with my colleagues.
Turning 23 is no joke.
Well,I got so many things still needs to be achieved.
And a new boyfren is not one of it. *smile with tongue out*
May god give me the strength,courage,health,wisdom and prosperity to me always.
Hoping for a better year ahead.:)

My one wish for the past 2 years have been the same.It will always be.
Wishing and hoping is the only thing left for it.

Other wishes:
that beautiful body
that beautiful long wavy hair
that beautiful skin


:)

Happy Birthday Sexywani.

My 2nd off day was spent on Wani's Bday.
She turned 22 this year.
Happy 22nd Bday to you babe..
May all your wishes come true and may prosperity,health and happiness be with you always. :)
Hope you like that beautiful Agnes B. HP chain we bought exclusively for you. ;)
And do enjoy that no.1 bestseller cake too.yummy right.? hehe.
The seafood at Newton was good,Karaoke at Cuppage was fun and crazy.
Tho' i was all alone vs the 2 couple wic comprises of Wani&Nas and Yani&James,I'm happy you did enjoy your day.
It is just sad that Bestie Ifa can't join us coz of her tummy ache. :(
Bestie,I was alone ok...hur hur hur...!
I became the third party to both Wani&Nas til 230am ok!
Somehow when i look at the sweet couple,it brings back those memories when i was with Someone coz' at the point when Wani&Nas got hooked up(about 3 years back),I was with Someone and was oh-so-happy.I still remembered we had a couple outing at Swensens and the only couple that wasn't complete was Wani's.She came alone and was sad and depress coz' Nas couldn't make it.Out of all the 5 couple only Wani& Nas lasted til this very day..aww..so sweet!
I think i need a boyfren soon...hahaha!
Oh well...i meant a proper one of coz..not those who comes and go,hurts and breaks...*roll eyes*
But i'm not finding tho'....I want to bump onto him.hahaha!
I'm super sleepy now.Its like 0347hrs ok.
Nite Nite.

Shoutout

Siti Irwani Azzuri!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I already got my Blackberry Bold..!!!!

*tapping my fingers on the table....* when is urs gonna be..??? hehehehe!!

Me-Day

I'm enjoying my read.
Jodi Picoult-my sister's keeper.



I think i'm going out for my retail therapy tomorrow since it is my off day.
hmm.........lots of things to get and lots of bills to settle. And I need a Me-day for myself.




P.S. I'm not feeling quite well actually..my body ache..i feel very warm... hope i'll be ok when i wake up tomorrow.

Edit.

I'm done editing my blog content.

Exhausted.

It's been sometime.
I was freakin' busy with work and i think i am still gonna be.
Now i am complaining.
Although it made me busy and forget bout' stuffs i shouldn't be thinkin' about,I think i still deserve a good rest!
12 hour shifts is no joke.

I have been recently posted to Ward 61 to help out as they are lacking in staffs to cover for the overwhelming H1N1 cases.I tot' it was gonna be boring and no fun coz' i don't know them.But hey,I think i enjoy myself better than i am in ICU.I got along well with the staffs there too.:) Hmm...I don't mind going back to wards the next time plus i am sick with the peeps in ICU.oops..

Despite my constant busy-ness,I still manage to squeeze some time to reunite with beloved Bestie after so loooong! We had a good night-out.

And i am working again tonight.

P.S. I can't wait to get that Blackberry Bold.

Back from JB.

Been and back from JB.
3 days 2 night was fun!
The hotel staff are very friendly.
We had Movie Marathon,Makan Marathon and Shopping Marathon.lol.
I didnt really miss Singapore coz from our 11th floor room,we could see singapore so clearly! haha...\

Going back there soon for our Hari Raya Shopping.

And so since we still have 1 more day off,we decided to give our colleague our support for the Singhealth Nursing Debate Semi-final.Congrats Geetha! KKH has kicked CGH out!! yeay!!Now is between KKH and SGH...hopefully KKH will win.. :)

Working later.I don't feel like going to work!! hish!

Retail Therapy

I got my Designer shades and IPOD touch...
Still aiming for that Blackberry...
Soonest!!
My pockets hurts but my heart is in Love with my new COACH sunglass which cost a bloody 400 bucks and the IPOD touch which cost 498 bucks.That is like almost 1k ok!! sheesh~
I wont declare myself a bankrupt until i got that Blackberry.! haha!

Off to JB tomorrow.
Will be back soon to catch my Blackberry...haha!! siao!

Bonus!!

Yay!!! I got Bonus!!! Yahooooo!!!!!!!!!!!
I can smell Blackberry/HTC and my Shades...*evil laughs*

I'm on my 5 days off as per my request...
Been working like Everyday.....!! I need a break..
giving me only one day off in between my nights and 1 day off in between 2 days is super tiring ok!!
Some people just aint as caring as what nurses should be...i think that quality just died off after you have stopped doing that bedside nursing and just stuck on ur chair doing the stupid roster! Irritating specimen you are!

And yes I'm going for a short trip to JB...destressing time with my KuKu aka Kak Midah and Kak Lela...I wanna go Movie Marathon,Eat Durian,Eat Seafood,Karaoke and see what I can shop there...JB,here I come....well sometimes we need not need to go so far for our vacation...you might miss the good thang and overlook the pleasures it has to offer...*wink*

Can I really really willy willy start to lose some weight after this JB trip...puurrlleaaseee??? I really need to...I have to!My Uniform is so so tight already..I feel like i'm in a body wrap ok!! Sheesh~

No money, Not Happy!

I want the Blackberry Bold can?
I want a designer Shades for myself too!!

But,
WHAT IF.....no bonus?

I want to go on strikes la!

I feel for Izzie.

I was post night.

I had breakfast once I reach home and then watch my Greys Anatomy (Season Pass episodes).

I was so sad watching it that I cried so much at about 830am in the morning???

Am I too emotional or is it really that they are a bunch of good actors and actresses??

But it did moved me for sure.

Will Izzie die?

I did a quiz in facebook asking which Greys Anatomy role am I most likely.

And mine was Izzie's.

I know that actually.

She is as Emo and Lovey-Dovey as me.LOL.

And in this latest episode,I would say I would have done the same thing as her,sign up for the DNR status.I neither want tubes going down my throat nor be vegetable for life... and yes I do Love you ...so much... but you have to let me go if the surgery gets down to failure...now,come give me a kiss and close your eyes while you do that...*tearing*

I don't want to watch next episode can?

I'll need an empty bucket you know...

P.S. After I have stopped living in denial,I realised that I'm strong coz' I'm living with the pain without you...

2 years passed.

''They Say Time Heals All Wounds, It Doesnt. All It Does Is Make The Pain Easier To Live With And Some How Down The Track We Stop Looking For Him And You Realize That You Will Always Love Him And It Will Always Hurt But You Have To Move On.No One Can Ever Replace The Happiness I Have Once Shared With Him...''




P.S. I can't sleep..I wish i'm living in the fridge now..

The Mishap.

Got a bad news from Izzul.

Ahmad me with an accident.

Being a workhaholic,I have only yesterday to go visit him after my day shift.

Off to NUH after work with Kak Midah & Jasmine.

Aww..poor thing Ahmad..

Both hands fractured and he showed a picture of his open wound..man..it was gawry!

But we were overall glad that he is doing absolutely fine and there is no head injury during the mishap.

Ahmad looks drowsy though.

The effect of Pethidine.

Get well soon buddy and you don't need ITE student nurses to feed you like Ah peks!

Hmm..I wonder how it feels to be assisted in toilet needs since both hands is immobilize..lol..

You better be good and behave hor..lol

And this workhaholic is super exhausted.Superwoman needs to sleep now...ZzzzZZ.

That Powerful...

It took me this much effort,this long and this many heartbreaks to just try to forget and get over you....and I still miss you....

I just woke up from a very long nightmare.I just realize how much times i've used....almost 2 years i think?

I no longer wants to live in denial.I know it is you i have deep in my heart no matter what...no more guys as replacement of you no more love as a substitute for your love.I have to accept the fact that it is YOU i have in my heart and no one else.

Enough of being a liar to myself.
I know I will not have you in my life but I want to be honest with myself and not hurt myself again and again by making myself vulnerable to all those guys.I want to be that happy,carefree,beautiful lady that i always wanted to be.

Oh geez..working again tomorrow morning after one day of rest??I am a superwoman indeed..lol

Workhaholic.

Did i tell you my roster sucks?
Yes it sucks.
I have no life.
I'm officially a workhaholic!
Damn my supervisor.

Doesn't mean i'm a single lady i have all the time only for work lor...
I have frens and family too ok..
Idiot!

Thankfully i'm smart enough to try find sometime to be as close as possible with my family...
But seriously,I have no time left for frens...so sad.

I'm waiting for my leave in August.Hopefully I could ketchup with them.Miss them loads.

And I have recovered from my Flu.Thank god.
Back to work!

Flu-ing away.

I am down with flu.
Feeling very very weak but i didn't wanna take MC.
Reason being i don't want to make my IDIOT supervisor change my shift from 2 shifts to 3 shifts.
Every of my day shifts for the past days was hell hectic...
But syukur alhamdulilah that i am able to complete my tasks properly even tho' at times I just feel like giving up and go home...haiz..
I just hate superiors who are bias!!!

Everyday for the past days,I just went home straight and fall on my bed til' the next morning when i'm due for my next day shift...What a life...!

And

Did i told you that Zal called me the other day coz' he says he tot of me when he was watching video of the Malaysian Singer,Ella..? It reminded him of me...I was like ..what the heck?? or is it you just call me just to have good relation with me and then you can slowly tk advantage of me and hurt me again and again?? Get lost!I already told you that treat as if I'm dead..I hate myself for being too nice to him...I still can talk to him like there's nothing wrong...*slapsmyhead* But seriously I have no more feelings for that jerk!

Even tho' Mus took advantage of me financially..at the very least he treats me well...he cares for me and even tho' I have made it clear to him that i wanted to end things off with him,he still calls me every other day to check on me and make sure i'm alright...

Haiz...some people just treat-'' hurting others'' as their hobby I guess...

P.S. I notice that the more I try to get away from all these guys and forget about Love at the moment,the more these guys is trying to cum back to me.....fortunately,I am stronger than yesterday... :)
Imma keepon being a workhaholic...and keepon givin me love to ma family and loved ones.