Trying too hard.

It just makes me realise.
I'm like clapping on my own.
It takes two to clap.
But i see no effort from him.
I'm not expecting anything great from him.
Just to show me signs that there is still hope.
But to no avail.
I truly understand you need time,space and privacy to do your own things.
But am i asking too much to ask a simple "Hello" from you?Maybe i am.
It has only been me who initiate everything.
It is always me.
I have always been bothering you i guess.
Many a times i always put aside my pride just to show him how much Love i've got for him.
But the reaction i got was always quite disappointing.
Yes maybe a retribution to myself coz i initiated to end off.
But god knows that everything that i did was because of sacrifice for his own good.
It is really for his good i thought.
I have got no power if he misintepret my intention for something bad.
That was the first time i made a decision and that shall be the last time.
I have phobia in decision-making now.
I'm okay if people blame me for my hasty decision.
I regret on it and learnt from it.I've even apologized.
The rest,i have got to say that i'm powerless.
I've been praying and hoping that I could have his Love back once again.
It's just so hurting to see the situation i'm in.
I really feel very very awful.
Not good at all.
I shall not bother him anymore.
I dun want him to hate me.
Let me console my own heart.