Avoiding tears.

Everytime i open up the wardrobe door,
my eyes will surely focus on the cute,pink paper bag.
I know if I were to open up and relearn about it ,I'll cry a river.
Just now,I got home at 3:30pm.
I thought i want to clear and tidy up my wardrobe since i got some time to spare.
I know I am fasting and that I will not cry and ''discounted'' the price of my fast if i were to open up the paper bag.
As I slowly took out the content in it,I became so weak.
The words on the card,the words on the beautiful novel,the dried white rose,the dried white lily,the engraved ring& the green jersey which i had to give back to his bro coz his bro needs to be in a soccer game wearing it.
Everything just flashes through my mind.
As soon as i know i couldn't take it any further,I quickly put everything back in place and think of something comical e.g the lameness and crappiness of Muttons to midnight(98.7fm) etc. to help clear my mind off.
I did teared but not cry.
And i didn't manage to do anything to my wardrobe as i purposely grab my novel and read it till i fell asleep for awhile.
I now wonder,when on earth am I able to tidy up my wardrobe??
And till when am i going to avoid all these??