Dear Mom...

Everything is fine...
i was fine until you have to mention his name...
I remember telling you that after that very day,
I don't want to hear anything about him or his name anymore..
Not because i hate him,
hatred is not my style...
I just don't want to keep having him lingering in my mind anymore...
It is very difficult to put thoughts of him aside..
I tried very hard everyday to slowly get on with my life and let him go,
Coz' i know he is happy and doing fine with his life there...
And that the very last SMS frm him was just shocking but made me stronger in getting over him..
I had to show a very sour face to you the moment you mentioned his very name...
I'm really sorry Mom...
I know you didn't meant to and it was just a slip of the tongue...
But Mom,
Do you know how my heart is breaking whenever I heard his name mentioned...?
You could mention his name once,but it is breaking my heart a million times...
god knows how much it hurts...
Seriously Mom,
I never love a person this very much...
no matter how much it is hurting me,I still Love him so much...
But i know and i'm very proud that i could Love till this great and that i am sure that i could Love my future husband even greater....(Insya Allah...)
And Mom,
i know you will always pray that i could meet someone whom i could love and be loved in return soon...
God's willing i will be able to meet him soon...but i need some time to recover first...
If i am fated to i will be fated to.....
I'm so sorry mom that i have to be rude to you because of just a word that you'd said...
I just hope i could be less sensitive to all these...
I love you mom.....
*tearing....*