I don't get you.

Bestie,
I seriously don't understand you.
I don't get what you are trying to convey to me.
I am seriously working very hard.
I'm not fooling around with my colleagues at work.
And we don't even get to see each other everyday like what you said in the sms.
We only clash in shift like once or twice in a month.
Is it wrong when they ask me out for seafood in JB?
And they have always told me in advance coz they know i was having off days.
You didn't even tell me that you wanna meet and you get pissed off when you found out i'm in JB with them.??
I admit that i always give reason that i am tired whenever you ask me to go to gym.
(you should know how much i hated the people in the gym)
But when going out with you,I always want to even though i'm tired.
You know what's the different between you and my colleagues?
I have always turn down my colleague's offers for so many times compared to you.
But then again,I know you're my bestie and that is why i try my very best to sacrifice for you coz you're my bestie.
But in occasion that i'm really very tired,I have to admit of coz.
Maybe my colleague understood me better coz we work in the same place.
They feel what i feel.
At times when ICU get busy or wat,they truly know how hectic it is and when i turn down their offers,they truly understand.
I have to say that working in general ward is as tiring too but i have never complain to you if you get tired or wants to rest at home instead of going out with me.I really don't mind at all.
I just don't get you.Really.
Is it too much for me to ask from you to understand me a bit?
And pls don't say to me that" i'm always out with my colleagues coz i'm getting bored of you or has found a new bestie."
It hurts me ok and it is truly self-centered of you to say that.
Whatever it is,I just don't get you.
I was truly hurt and disappointed.