Disgusted.

I was nudged by Suzanne in MSN again...

I thank god that i was not meant for him...
Utterly disgusted by him...
In Summary-heartbreaker.

But yeah...its the past...and i believe in KARMA too.
Forgotten about it too.

I have got no time to think about it too..
not worthy.

Random

Lots of things happened.
-Allahyarhamha nenek is resting peacefully now...
-I feel so happy and blessed to be able to meet the most beautiful person in my life-Muhaimin
-2 of my colleagues got engaged at the same day and time ...
-i'm getting fatter aka happier-but i freaking needs to lose weight coz Lovey is not so tall in height..hehe!
-planning for a short vacation to Bandung with my couple in crime... ;)
-Some freaking woman aka Suzanne(someone's EX!) msn me -i freaking dunno for whatever reason..?? wth?lucky thing i was in a movie with love and didnt reply to her msgs..Freako.

blah blah blah.......etc etc...

didn't know 2010 will be an eventful year....still more to come :)

Sad-love moments.

Nenek is critcally ill at NUH's Medical ICU.
For the past week,i have been going to and fro hospital..
Dearest Muhaimin have always been with me tru' bad times...
He picks me up from hospital to home everyday and visited nenek everyday too..
He cried with me even...
I thank god i found him...
And i never fail to pray for nenek's recovery...
Even if its time for her to go,i want her to go peacefully and don't want her to feel any pain...
As a nurse,i maximise usage of my nursing knowledge so as to help be nenek's advocate...
I am the main spokesperson for my nenek coz' i know that i am knowledgeable out of many..
But i still feel helpless when nothing much can be done to help nenek as nenek is very old and has many organ failure...
I took compassionate leave from work coz' i wanna be there for nenek every single day...
I have not been to work for a week and tomorrow i am resuming work...
My mind is still not at ease...
But work is work....
And with all these happening,i can never be thankful enough to have such a supportive partner like my dearest Muhaimin...

I love you like no words can describe...

P.S I love you so much nenek...be strong coz our prayers are always with you..

Back from Hiatus.

Its been awhile since i last blog.
Been quite busy with life-now that i have one more commitment ;)
Things have been going on quite nicely for me...
We fight,we cry,we laugh but we end up loving each other more...
It feels long although we are very new...
Maybe becoz we meet everyday without fail... :)-not complaining though.

I have to adjust to lots of things now that i have you...
it is not an easy transition i must say but i am enjoying every journey of it...
one thing i'm thinking about now is my intention of going Middle East to work...
I know we will suffer if we are separated so faraway from each other...
we will think of a way out to that i hope..
there is few options i could think and it seems that u have no objection to that... :)
But first...
i must start sending CV to them...
you should too :)

And another thing that bothers me is about you and Kak Midah...
you guys just can't seem to get along...
tough one for me...
So weird that both of ya'll not quite like each other even before i get to intro both of u to each other...
hmmm...
well....this is life...problems are bound to be there... :(
gotta face it with an open mind and open heart :)

Your Song To Me.

Whenever I'm weary

From the battles that rage in my head

You make sense of madness

When my sanity hangs by a thread

I lose my way but still you

Seem to understand

Now and forever I will be your man

Sometimes I just hold you

Too caught up in me to see

I'm holding a fortune

That heaven has given to me

I'll try to show you

Each and every way I can

Now and foreverI will be your man

Now I can rest my worries

And always be sure

That I won't be alone anymore

If I'd only known you were there

All the time

All this time

Until the day the ocean

Doesn't touch the sand

Now and forever

I will be your man

Now and forever

I will be your man

Bless this Love.

Thank god I found you.

I miss everything about you and you cried so much while i'm away.

Now that i'm back in your arms.

I am just so thankful that i was given this chance to know you and to love you.

You told me you love me more than yourself.

How touching is that..?

Arrhhhh...tell me how can i not fall for you more each day..?

Even mom and dad is impressed by how responsible you are in picking and sending me home at my doorstep every single time we met.. :)

Oh Allah..pls bless this Love of ours...

Amin~

History-fied.

It was indeed a beautiful place.

No regrets for sure.

Even tho' i have to leave my Ayah back home.

Glad that he understands and never fail to SKYPE every single night with me throughout the 11 days.

I learnt alot about the rich history of Turkey,the culture,religion,people,food and entertainment.

An eye-opener for me.

Turkish guys are especially friendly ;)

And first time experiencing snow!!

And most precious experience is taking a ride on the hot air balloon at Cappedoccia amidst the beautiful cliffs and mountaineous area of the countryside.Breath taking experience.

But i misses Singapore and especially Sambal tumis and cili padi!! I ate Cheese and meat everyday there!! I'm sick of meat & cheese now.haha!

But most importantly I'm back in his arms. :)

Time off.

Now that i am officially on a 3 weeks leave from work!!!!! woohooo!
Stress-free period....
And tomorrow....I will be away....for awhile...
taking my time off to somewhere I have always wanted to be....
Pray for my safe journey to and fro...
And I can't wait to experience the beauty of this place...
Till i'm back in Singapore..
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year people.... :)

P.S. Mama's gonna mish you so so much Ayah....

This Love.

It is hard accepting your flaws..

But it is even harder imagining life without you...

I smile everyday hearing,looking and feeling you...

You smile everyday knowing i'm there for you...

We are afraid of losing each other coz it feels meaningless without each other...

You feel so lost without me by ur side for few minutes..

Oh dear....how can i not Love you more each day..?

You fetch and send me home at my doorstep everytime we meet..

You told me you feel like crying everytime we have to go back home..

Its been so long since i last feel this LOVE i have been wanting...

And both of us are working on it- now that we have it...

May Allah bless our Love...

Love is like a battlefield.

I'm in Love.
But it is a mixed feeling.
It feels weird too.
It was Love at first sight for the both of us.
Didn't expected it though.
This time,i'm not going to cry and be depressed if it doesn't work,
I'm just gonna move on and work harder.
They say it is always very sweet in the beginning.
Its the honeymoon period.
Just enjoy and cherish this moment.
There is more challenges to come.
Yes,i do hope that he is the right one but I am prepared if he isn't.

It still feels so raw.
So new.
But we feel like we knew each other for ages.
Maybe that is what people referred as 'chemistry.'
He seems sincere but don't blame me if i still have doubts.
It is not easy to trust the male creature.
Just pray that everything is gonna be fine.
And yes...we are accepting the flaws we both have with an open heart.
We sorta make it as something we could work on.
May we be blessed.

Resuming work tomoro's night.
Hopefully i'll feel better tomoro.
I never had such a bad GastroEnteritis ever in my life.

I feel so much better after i ate the delicious hot chicken porridge which i bought early this morning .
I was craving for it like mad.
Lucky thing i got it. :)
The day after tomoro will be a busy day for me as i'm going on a 3 days 2 night chalet.
I will be hosting it and thanks to my ward manager for not granting my request.
I have to freaking go to work from the chalet coz i was rostered to do day shift on my 2nd day at the chalet!
Thanks again eh.
Hopefully i will not be too tired. sigh.
Anyways...
its already 8th of January....soon i'll get away for a holiday!! woohoo!!

*claps hand*
*excited*

:)

I had a busy Sunday attending to wedding and engagement invites.

In the midst of that madness,I found a willy wily cute,adorable cutie pie.

He is so so manja with me...

He like to smile and he giggles when i kiss him repeatedly on his face...
And his name is Raif....

I want a baby for myself too can?

My Genuine curses specially for you guys.

Another one more night and then its a busy Sunday.
And hell yeah,thanks to my dearest Manager for screwing up my roster!!!
If i request means i need la Gundu!!
If u don't want to grant my request,then i throw in MC la...
Some stupid dumbass you are la..

Apart from that,
It is sometimes so so unfair for us.
We even have to think a trillion times if we want to take MC when in actual fact we are entitle for 13 days but only allow less than 5 days a year? More than 5 days,we will be converted to 3 shift.
What the hell is that????
absolute crap..!
And now i'm feeling sicky,stiff neck,sore throat,killing headache...
and what should i do????
Go drag myself to work la...die die also must work wat...
want to die also must die at work!!
Then only they know it is a genuine sickness.
Some Bitches you guys are.

I simply couldn't wait to get lost from CICU.
And in the midst of me trying to apply for job in Dubai,
Dubai faces ecomonic problem....
Haiz......
Hopefully Dubai will recover economically in about 6 month time???
Oh god pls....

Outing to Vivo was so much fun with mom and abang.
Did some shopping,dining and just spending some quality times together.
Mom was happy to get a new phone and Abang was happy i treated them to a delicious meal at EARL Swensens.
We had a great day.

So many things i wanted to update but im too lazy to blog.

My consecutive 5 days off was so much fun.

I did tonnes of stuff.

Shopping,party,dining,family,frens,GFs,Dates :)

I'm loving every bit of it!

And and and......and i got a newfound fren cum date...

Arab guy!!!

He was on a vacation break and came to Singapore for holiday.

He approach me that Sat night and then we went on a date..Such a sweetheart..but im not gonna have a serious relationship with him...

He is just good to oogle at and to be adored :) not gonna let matters of my heart get involved ;)

look at him....

Sheikh Zarkh Ali

*fanning myself* *faints*

Our Date turned out well...very well actually...

''Saya suka awak la sayang..." that was what he said before we went home....

I just replied "Aww...so cute la your Malay..!"haha...

In my heart i was saying...."Macam paham la budak Arab ni....hahaha!''

And now...I don't feel like going back to work tomoro...

Tsk tsk tsk.... such a bummer!

The Old Me is Dead & Gone.

Happy 22Nd Yani!

Better year ahead for you ya.. :)

We sure do have tonnes of fun karaokeing for like 4 hours without stop!

I sure do love taking crazy pictures of You all singing or perhaps croaking away! lol!

We were high on sugars too coz of the Sinful BDAY cake and Aunty Anne's Pretzels!

And I love the 2nd part of the night too!

3monkeys session was absoutely relaxing and emotional huh?

I was actually tearing when i talk things out to the both of you...

I suddenly feel good letting it all out to you guys...

All this while i have never stop blaming on the past which i think had caused me to be who i am now.

And I don't really fancy being who i am now...

But you guys was right

I can't be too hard on myself...

And anyway i am heading those advice you guys told me.. :)

I have to be a lil'bit mean esp to guys,

Just so i stand up for my own rights.

And yes...

I'm Loving it :)

P.S The old me is dead & gone.

Sawadeeka...

Been and back.

Bangkok was awesome.

Has always been actually.

Non-stop shopping!!

And we girls surely did have tonnes of fun!

We already miss Bangkok so much just after we landed in Changi Airport...damn..

It was my 2nd time there and so i was the one leading the girls.

I never regret coming back to Bangkok.

It has always been a great experience.

We Love Bangkok! :)

And my new Canon EOS 500D too! ;)

Feeling sore.

Down with a bad sore throat...
So bad ..til' i almost couldn't let out my voice...
aarh..painful...
But still i have to work....
For another 2 nights...
Coz i'm having 6 consecutive off days...
Looking forward to my Bangkok trip... :)

I wonder and wander.

I stayed home for my 2 consecutive off days.

It is not my norm actually.

I just don't feel like going out.

I feel so so tired.

I can really sleep so much-now I know.

I was in my room for most of the time coz' only at night everyone's home...

And during the day..

I was listening to songs and lying down on my comfy bed...

My mind starts to wander/wonder...

I am actually quite lonely...

I miss those time i have someone to call my own...

I miss those time i could talk,complain,laugh and cry with that someone....

I just miss those time...

But i know its all in the past...

And in times when im all alone in my room..

my mind just wanders/wonders.... :)

I am not complaining about anything...

I'm thankful and just as happy as i have always been :)

P.S. I am actually very much disturbed by the phonecalls/sms by irritating guys who doesn't understand what is rest days...hmmph!And plus I really am so sick by you guys...I have tried subtle ways to tell you guys that i'm not interested but still you guys don't understand me...being polite is not working i guess..haiz....this is life... the people who we want most,we couldn't have them,the people who we can't love,will be all around us....*sad*

New eye-candy.

Should I or Shouldn't i ?

I'm eyeing the Canon EOS 500D and Nikon D5000.

LOL.

But My Canon Ixus is already giving me great picture quality.

But But...The EOS 500D and Nikon 5000D is better in so many ways!!

Well...I need to look into my finance part first...

If got extra cash, I might get it.

If not i'm very much happy with my IXUS already.

:)