Let it out.

I'm really in misery.
Every day that comes makes me go weaker and weaker.
Been getting closer and closer to god.
Felt the calm and serenity.
However,most of the times I feel so low,uninspired,speechless.
Every single night before i sleep,I wish and pray that it would come true.
Wherever i go,whatever i do,whoever i'm with,
he keeps appearing in my mind and i feel him so close to my soul still.
Getting over break ups has never been this difficult for me.
I have never felt like this before.
Total misery.
Oh god,
if we are not meant to be together,
pls don't do this to me.
But if we are,
pls show me some light.
I'm in total darkness.
I feel so lost.
pls.