Possibly Long.

Dear god,

I have been suffering since 9th june 2007.
How long more am i going to be like this?
Tears is never ending.
It gets more and more.
I feel so so sad.
The good intention that i have turned into my biggest mistake.
I always think of others before myself.
But unfortunately, it gets on me.
If only he could read my heart,he'd probably know.
The suffering that i already have is getting more & more tougher.
am i that strong to face it?
This Love i have is really a great one and of coz a painful one too.
If only i know it's gonna be this painful,
I would have just kept my heart to myself.
This thing have been adversely affecting me for so long.
And still?
I am not able to get over and done with it.
I have been trying hard but to no avail.
Possibly a retribution to all my past mistakes.
This is only now,don't know how it would be after Life?

Losing a Loved one is really very traumatising.
Especially this particular 'Loved one'.

I'm for sure gonna learnt from this experience.
And I'm sure there is a blessing in disguise of everything that happened.

Oh god,I'm so so thankful I have you.