Good things above the bad.

Whenever i think of the money i 'm going to spend on buying a new phone for myself, I feel so so irritated...
I thought the money can be use for other purposes...
It is really a pain in my pocket la...
But there is a blessing in disguise I realized...
Due to my not-so-good memory...
I forgot all the numbers in my phone....
Which means i will also forget Someone's number...
and which also means i will not sms or call him anymore..
well at least i won't have the urge to call or sms him since i don't even know his number...
Isn't it great..?
Well at least i have another way to help me forget him right...
I meant not really forgetting him la..that is impossible la...
Well at least put his topic at rest...
It's been the longest record-breaking post break-up depression i ever had..
And thanks to it la that i have to gain so much weight...!
I have to put a stop to it soon before i burst like an over-inflated ballooon...
So much for a true Love....
*shakes head*
Niways...let bygones be bygones...
If it's not meant to be then it is not going to be...
I just want to enjoy my singlehood and maybe in the midst of it i could find my soulmate...???
Awww......

Lost phone.

I thought after the revival of my U600 samsung phone,I could never have any problems with phone aymore...

But i just lost it on Friday Night.......
We are not destined to stay for long i guess...
it is just not meant to be...

I have to like fork out $$ to get a new phone soon...
*sigh*

To all my contacts..
pls sms me your number telling me your name ok??
I need to save it up back once again...

Its gonna be fine.

First of all...

I'm praying that nenek will be ok...
Hopefully she can be discharged soon...

And finally...
I'm having a bit of fun nowadays...
Thanks to Arifa for being there for me always...
I had fun that night...
I was high with some fun ....
BUT,
I know my limits...
However, i'm surely looking forward to such fun in the later future...*grins*

Raya Outings with Colleagues.

I had a long day On 2nd November.
My day started as early as as 10 am and ended as late as 12 midnite...
Raya outing with my colleagues was fun but hectic...
But luckily we got 2 SUVs to brings us around...thanks to Raihan abd Izzul for driving us around...U guys save half of my energy..*grins*
And yes...We were filling in our stomach with food continuously!!
Imagine we have to eat at every house and we visited approx 10 houses in total..!
How crazy is that??? haha!
But it was a fun experience..
though it was super tiring and we have to work on the following day...
More of it next Hari Raya..??
*smile*

Working Hard.

I know i have been missing in action from blogging for past few days or so...
I'm just too tired to even blog about stuffs...
CICU is very hectic and busy nowadays...
By the time i got home,I only crave for my comfortable sleeping nest...
Sometimes i wonder...."Is my life gonna be like this for long...?"
I need to add more colors to it...
Sometimes i feel tat i just wanna shut myself off from the world...
And seriously, i miss having someone to talk to before i fall asleep every night...
i really miss that..i admit i do feel very lonely but at the same time i could feel the serenity being alone...
And i'm really thankful to everyone that has kept me going...
people like my family,colleagues,cousins and special people who never fail to make me smile...
I'm really blessed to have these people around...

I think i really need some sleep now...

Numb.

Look at what you've done to me...
I'm really feeling numb...
I'm living life as per normal but with all the numbness in my heart...
Once in while like yesterday night,
i was crying out so bad...so bad...that i feel numb...
But i am always determine...
Everyday without fail,i pray to god that i could recover fully and find back the feeling of Love...
And if its gonna take me long....i will wait patiently.

And the dream i had yesterday was scary...
pls make it false...
I don't want...
I'm now happy with my beloved family and frens...
I'm just waiting for my soulmate who will appear at a right time and till the end of time....*smile*
wherever you are,pls tk care of yourself ok....?
haha! I sound crazy....
don't mind me ok..*grins*

Dinner & Dance 2007

Event:KKH Annual Dinner & Dance 2007
Date:20th October 2007
Venue:Swissotel The Stamford
Theme:Back to School

Thumbs up to the MC of the day...! Mr Justin... I swear i've never laugh that much in the whole of my life..! hahahaha!! And thanks to him coz now i am having sore throat...not because of the coke but becuase of his crappy jokes!! hahaha!!
And oh yes...i feel all so young coz i feel like i'm only 12 years old!! haha!! I look so decent nonsense yesterday...! Especially when Jasmine wanted to plait up my hair coz according to her i look like a mad woman if i didn't tie up my hair..haha!! thanks eh Jasmine... cannot blame me mah...i worked morning shift leh..my energy is running out and all i wanted to do was to sleep after work!! But when i reach the hotel room...i feel hyper coz everyone is so enthu!! you guys gerek la!
And oh yes...i think i'm getting more interested with my eye candy la..! Although i already eyed on him for so long...and nobody knows....he was really so hott yesterday nite!!! I mean i could fantasize him with that cute school uniform which he was wearing yesterday!! *fanning myself*..actually i already lost the interest in him coz it has been long since i saw him during lunch time...but yesterday,when i went to the toilet...i bumped into him..he was going back from the gents and i was going to the ladies...and both of us was wearing suspenders!! awww.....so the fated like that eh..?? hahah! He gave me a smirk and i just smiled a bit...hehe! shy la! haha! And before we went home..we bumped again...we were exchanging eye contact with each other...haha! Shhhhh.......this shall be a secret between me and him only hor!!
Niways..the food wasn't fantastic ok..so disappointing...but its okay..the MC saved the night..! hahah!! You're really great la...*grins*
And i'm still very tired...tomorrow have to work still and still have not completed my Hari Raya visiting...!
I'm draining out.....phew!

Resuming work.

I dragged myself to work.
But as I reached my workplace..
I just smiled to myself and say...
My patients sure do need me...

So far work was ok just now...
Have to really work hard after 8 days of leave...
And i really miss taking care of the kids..!!
They just brightens out my day...*grins*

Not too late.

I think i'm not too late to wish all Muslims

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf zahir & Batin

I'm sorry I couldnt find the time to wish earlier due to the never ending house chores that needs to be done before Hari Raya...

And I hope all of you are enjoying yourself with your loved ones.

Cleaning up.

-----------Major clean -ups in progress------------

Leave From Work.

(Photo taken @ Fish&Co @Suntec )
This is how nurses looks like after a hard day at work!

And i finally met up with Arifa!!
My lesbo partner...haha!
It hurts hearing your story Ifa...
But you gotta be strong like me ok??
I know it aint easy,infact it is very diffcult..
But everything happens for a reason...and
there is always a blessing in disguise..
you lost him but you always have me with you ok...?
*hugs*

Hey Hey!
I'm back after so long of working my ass out...!
haha!
And now i proudly announce- I'm having a 1 week leave from work!
haha!
It feels so good to stay in the comfort of my home...Aaaarrgggghh...heaven! *grins*

Finally i went to Geylang last Sat.
It was as what i have expected.
Packed with humans!
I really don like the feeling i tell you..
I'm forced to be there coz i have to get my baju kurung...
If not,I wouldn't be there...
Well at least i got my baju...
My family will be in black and maroon in color for Hari Raya...!

And for this whole week,
I'm going to be a full time housewife!!
Yahooo!
Gonna spring clean my house!
Gotta go do my service as a housewife!!
I'll be back..!
Soonest...

Iftar Session.

Holiday Inn Parkview Hotel was our choice.
My muslim colleagues and me had our iftar session together.
It was my first time seeing some of my colleagues with their beloved family..
Cik Sakirah,Kak Hamidah,Radiah,Nur Raihan,Eza,Izzul,Ahmad and me was there to break our fast together.
We had our stomach filled with almost all the food prepared on the buffet table.
I was super bloated i tell you.
But worth it.
It was a great day guys.


And tomorrow will be independence day for me.
No more buddy system.
I have to work alone now.
scary.
But i have to do it.
Praying that everything will be ok.
Insya Allah

Hungry me.

Can you hear my tummy growling....???

2 more hours till i swallow a horse!

In god's hand.

I just lost my maternal aunt 4am just now.
Everything was so sudden.
I could sense that she was not doing good when i came and visit her yesterday in ICU.
Septicemia(Infection of the blood) has affected many of her main organs.
Her BP was very low and to see her in that condition was just a painful thing.
I couldn't help but to break down.
It was surprising for many of relatives when they saw me crying as i'm not close with her.
We only meet once in a year during Hari Raya.
But my sensitive inner beings just have to make me feel so sad.
The kiss that i gave to Cik Ros on her forehead was really a very touchy moment.
Maybe to many of you,being a nurse somehow makes the nurse some sort of immune to death or lost of someone,
but that is not the case.
I'm only human and my emotions are very strong.
I may not have high IQ but my EQ is.

To my dearest :
Abang Airie,Abang Nan and Cik Merli,

Pls remain strong and patient.
We will always have Cik Ros in our prayers.

Girl's Day Out.

It is really strange of me to not stay at home nowadays.
I have been going out and coming back home late.
I just feel better when i'm out either with my friends or just alone.
My colleagues and i had our girl's day out just now.
We went shopping till its time for our break fast.
We were too tired to walk around after our tummy were filled with food and so we headed Starbuck Coffee to slack.
We chat,gossip,laugh and crap about everything.

And i feel lucky as i was given a chance to get to know Nur Raihan's bestie which is Shikin
(not in the pic).
I feel strong after hearing the story of your late boyfren.
If i were you I wouldn't have been in my right mind i guess.
We both are in some sort the same situation.
We lost someone we love so much,we even lost the love we used to get.
And we both faces long-term bad depression!
And you're living life normally now after a year past.
But we know,we will never be able to forget it till we die.
We even have the same perception that it will take a miracle for us to be back in Love.
That future partner for us must really be someone really special.
Insya Allah.
You inspired me.
Thanks a lot for sharing it with me.

I'll cry my last for you.

I can't help but to pour out my tears again...
Don't ask me why...
nothing new...
still about him...
I'm crying extra hard tonight...
Hope I'll cry my last for him...

Sinful Indulgence.

I know it is sinful but ignorance is a bliss! *guilty smile*
It feels so good in my mouth...
it even melts all over my fingers...
i lick my fingers slowly...till the very last bit....
aaarrrhhhhh.......oh baby that tasted so good...!
*wink*

Think i really look like a big,round,cute ,chubby potato right now.
But hey,i'm better now.
I can feel a bit of bliss at least...
So...can i have more doughnut puurrrrleaassseee...???
*pouts*

Mom's Birthday.

Photo taken at Vivocity in March 2007

Death of my Cellphone.

My phone has died!
Heart-wrenching!
I have only used it for like 3 months!
All due to the unzipped bag during the heavy rainfall...
I have to pay 300 over bucks to send for servicing!
I was like-What the hell...???
I might as well get a new decent phone at that kind of price.
But for now,i will just have to stick with my old Motorola phone coz i don want to burn a hole in my pocket.
I need to plan for the upcoming Hari Raya spendings.
Haiz...

And oh yes!
I'm on leave again!
a total of 3 days used!!
Arrrgghh!
Whatever la..
I'm just being practical here.
Since the grand total is like so pathetic..
I might as well stay at home and rest right?
No point going to work if there is not much which i can do or learn right..?
So i'm just gonna be a bookworm..a bigger bookworm with a bigger and thicker book??
*nerdy smile*

Unwilling Leave.

I'm on leave today...not because i wanted it but because CICU is overstaffed!
Haha!!
Wah lau eh...they have to eat up my precious Annual leave just beause the ratio of nurse to patient is overnumbered!
So the not fair!
And tomorrow i'm on leave again coz i have to attend the ward meeting and unfortunately i'm on PM shift...and so the best solution is take leave lor!! haiyah!!
My leave is getting lesser and lesser!
And the leave was not put into good use like travelling out of country or go for an interesting outings lor!! Moreover now is fasting month and i would usually be spending time at home lor...heart pain seh..!
Whatever la...
I just want to know i'll get my leave during Hari Raya and late December.
That's it!

And oh yes...
the current novel i'm reading is getting interesting la..! I loike! *wink wink*