Back from KL & Genting.

Day 1
Depart from Spore by coach to KL at about 9am...
Reached Puduraya KL at about 3pm...
Checked in into our luxurious Pacific Regency hotel room...
We then headed to Pavilion to have our tummy filled with good food...
Went to Lot 10 to shop for some stuffs...
Then headed to the reflexiology house to have our feet massaged..heaven...
Next stop was Petaling Street to shop again...
Went to Kota Raya's Starbucks to chit chat,merepeks and laugh like mad till about 11pm...
Went to grab ''cucuk-cucuk'' for our supper before heading back to our hotel.
Day 2
Woke up as early as 6 am...
Had our coffee before we went to Puduraya again to get our Genting Express tickets...
the earliest tixs we could get was the 11am slot...
So while waiting for time...
We headed for a proper breakfast at one of the coffee shop...
The prata was nice...sedap!!
Go jalan-jalan around and headed to one of the hotel lounge to tk a rest and have our toilet breaks.. :)
At 11 am...boarded the Genting express...
The journey took us about an hour...
We then took the cable car.
It was my first time experience and it was thrilling..
I feel like i'm flying..
the rest was like controlling their fear but i was absolutely a happy girl :)
It was a beautiful sight...
I have never seen such a beautiful sight ever in my life...
I feel like i'm in Switzerland...haha!
It was very foggy...
I breathe out cold mist!! Cool stuff!! haha!! Jakonnye aku!! haha!
We had our lunch there...Then i can't wait to get into all the rides!!
But we went to the casino to experience the gambling ambience..! haha!! Boring seh..!
Wandering why these peeps go there to throw their money there..siao!
Then fun time begins!!
I was the most daring one...
Even Izzul was a pengecot lor...
He dare not take a the flying coaster..
hmmmph..Luckily i got his cousin Sham to accompany me...it was an awesome ride!!
We went to the indoor theme park too...
Even thought it was freaking cold...
we didnt miss the chance to get into the Snow World..
haha!! Brrr Brr......
We had a lot of fun la!!
Sempat pegi Karaoke lagik!!!! haha!!
Worth it la ....!
Headed back to KL and had our Maggi Goreng supper at one of the coffee-shop by the street.
Reached our hotels about 1am...
then...Zzzz..ZZZzzzz....
Day 3
Depart from KL at about 12 noon...
Reached JB Larkin at about 330pm...
We then decided to go around City Square as i have never been to JB before!! haha!
We went to watch movie! Congkak!!
It was a good movie la...the sound effect compliments it all...It got me screaming ok!
After that we went to have our dinner at Kenny Rogers....yummylicious..!
Then we walk all the way to Woodlands checkpoint coz we dont want to be caught up in the traffic jam...
It was really tiring but I had fun!!! I meant So Much FUN!!! :)
More of such trip can..?? :)

Going for another short trip.

Hey people..
I'm going for another short getaway to Malaysia KL tomorrow...
I'm going to Genting to be exact...
Reason..??
I just wanna have fun..
with my colleagues as company..
I'm surely its gonna be fun..
Though its just 4 of us...

I'm gonna miss my bestie and family...
Didn't get to meet my bestie before i had to go coz of my crazy work!

I'll be back next week..Insya Allah...

Today.

I didn't forget.
I always remember..
few months before today.I will think and plan...
few weeks before today, I will work for my plan...
few days before today,I will ensure my plan is gonna work...
few hours before it ,I will be excited as if it is my own special day..
Happy 25th Birthday.

But Today is not supposed to be felt special by me coz some other people deserve to make it special for him.
Hope they enjoy the special Day..
:)

Happy Mother's Day

Wishing all Mommys a Happy Mother's Day.
You all have been great...

Dearest Mom,
Life has been quite a rollercoaster ride for me...
But i can never be glad and thankful at the end of the day coz' i always have you here with me...
Your unconditional Love for me and bros never fades away even for a day...
infact,it grows with time...
You have been my pillar of strength all my life...
You tolerated all my nonsense and never hold anything against it..
Your Love is so pure and sincere as you...
I truly hope that someday i would never have to make you feel worry or sad about me at all..
And i just want to make you happy as long as it can be...
As i grew older,I realize that obstacles in life are getting tougher but i always tell myself that if my mom is that strong,why can't i ..?
I can never repay everything that you have provided me with throughout my life...
But i hope i can make you happy always...
We've been through many hardships together as a family and i'm glad and thankful that till today we remain strong together....
Your sacrifices for all of us is greatly appreciated and i will always remember it til' my last breath..
I will always pray that you will always stay in good health,surrounded with happiness and glow with that beauty you always have...
I love you so much Mom...
*hugs n kisses*

Over her dead HOTT body.

I went out with Bestie yesterday.

We had some errands to run.

At the later part of the day,

we decided to have our tummy filled with food @ Fish & Co and then watch a movie together.
And so we watched 'Over Her Dead Hott Body'.

It was a hilarious movie juz a bit teary at the end.

Must watch.

You're an idol in my heart.

I received pleasant news from Someone via an email reply....
It made me teared with joy...
Everything is going on well on his side...
I will just pray that he'll get a permanent job soon...

I dunno why...
I just thought that someday i wanna have a son just like him...
So well-mannered,so loving,so responsible,so understanding,so hardworking,so wise,so smart,so humble,and good-looking too...
Now i really could understand how proud his mum is to have such a son...

Yes people I admit that i shouldn't disturb someone else's partner even though it is just an email...
But i sincerely don't mean anything...
Even though god knows how much I love him...
I just miss him alot and reassuring myself that he is happy and well...
and i know that no matter what i do,Someone is a very faithful partner and will not betray his partner...
I believe that coz I learnt that when i was with him...
All the best in life Someone...

Hard times.

Again...
I emphasize....
Work is getting on me...
It is making me crazy...
But i am pressing on...
Coz' i know i can overcome all this...

Parents pls tk extra extra care of your child and keep them healthy...
Children pls tk gd care of yourself and be strong...

And to myself....
You know your own limit...

All these times.

Its been a while since i last mention about Someone...
Yes i always refrain myself from blogging about him though it is always the 1st thing that comes to my mind.
Nowadays,i think about him more than usual.
I don't know why...
Maybe I miss him or maybe he miss me...*shrugs*
Well...ok...I miss him..
not becoz i want to but becoz i can't possibly lie to myself if i say no i don't miss him right..?
Day in day out i got to know new people or rather guys i should say...
But it seems that none of them can make me as happy as i was with Someone...
I feel so calm,happy,blissful,blessed,loved etc when i was with Someone..
I know it is wrong to compare someone from our past with the present...

I was talking with bestie in the Sauna room after gym just now...
We were talking about the Love of our life...
We both lost the Love of our Life at around the same time and we still think that until this very day...the effect or rather the trauma of the lost of that Love of our lives kept haunting us.
I always thought that Someone is gonna be the one.Same goes with Bestie...she always thought that 'Mimi' is gonna be the one for her and that the relationship is gonna be everlasting...But it didn't turn out like how we expected.
They were the one that give us the greatest hope but ended they cause the greatest hurt...
Well of course plus other factors like situational and fate....
But it seems so easy for them but it was hell for us..god knows...
Yes...but whatever it is I know that there is not a single one who could Love Someone as much as I do....really...I meant it...He will never find anyone who will love him like I do....never...
Sometimes I just wonder why my relationship keep on failing...
I try to find my flaws and improved but it still fails..
So probably The One made for me hasn't come yet....
I gave many chances and open up to new people like Azhar,Farhan etc. ..
But things just don't work out...
That very day,Mom ask me...Why my relationship don't always last?
It just invites tears the moment she says that....
I myself don't know mom...
I can only say probly it is just not the right time for me to find someone that is gonna be my life partner... time is only my answer...

And thanks Bestie for the heart-heart conversation we had at the Sauna room...
it really touches my heart...
Probly only you undersands how i feel coz we r going tru the same thing....
I'm really thankful to god i have you....
Probly you are the blessing in disguise of everything...?

What is really happening inside.

Work is getting crazy for me.

Hmmm ICU is making money eh..??

But thanks ar i have to work like a dog becoz of that.

Yesterday was like super busy i tell you.

I have to take care of this very heavy 12 yr old kid weighing 72 kg!

Imagine when i have to do my morning sponging for her?

I couldn't ask for help from the rest coz they are all super busy.

Luckily i got my new staff nurse attached to my room.

However,this new staff nurse is a petite young lady lor and that tells you that most of the effort will have to come from me when we have to move or change this heavy patient of mine.

When we were about to lift her a bit higher up to the head of the bed,I suddenly heard a 'crack' sound from my back...!

Oh my god...i seriously tried my very best to use proper body mechanics lor but still it hurts my back a lot..

And you know what??? Becoz this particular patient has been exposed to Chicken Pox,whoever going into the room will have to wear a N95 mask!! Imagine i have to wear that mask for like 12 hours and doing all the lifting and changing for her..?? I tell you I almost fainted becoz of lack of oxygen coz the mask is supposed to be tight.

Luckily i can transfer her out to High dependency ward coz she is somewhat stable.

I had to prepare everything prior to transfering her up to High D coz the Doctors always have the habit of ordering things last minute!! suck my blood la all these doctors!

At last i have to quickly send her up even before my doctor is able to complete a discharge summary.

I really looked like a mad woman yesterday.

It doesn't stop there...

I sent my patient up at about 430pm...by the time i hand over everything to the High D staff its already 530 pm..thanks to the High D doctors for asking so many questions la coz there is no discharge summary...and i have to give a bit of medical history of the patient and some treatment or procedures that was done on her throughout her stay in ICU...as a summary,I am the 'discharge summary' la! Thanks ar doctors.

Ok ok....not finish yet...

As i was gasping for air and trying to clear my room after transfering my patient up...one of my colleagues told me

"Eh sayang....one case coming in from children's emergency...you're taking the case..quick go and prepare your bed..."

I was like ....what the hell...???

Its already 6pm.??

Give me a break la can...?

But that was what i wish la...fat hope for me..

And so the case came in...it was like a total chaos la...the 2 month old baby is already intubated but ETT level not in place...so we have to adjust it...And so i fight war for like 2 and 1/2 hours of non-stop actions....I was suppose to go home at about 730pm but yesterday i only went home bout 8 plus...luckily i have all my colleagues and nursing managers to help me... thanks peeps..

In Summary,

I am really EXHAUSTED.

Not the time.

I don't want to think about all these anymore...
It is not the time yet i guess.
I will meet with The One someday....Insya Allah.

This week has been bad.

This particular week has been bad.
I will always remember what happen on Tuesday...
Having the rank of a Senior Registrar doesn't give you the power to just come and scream your lungs out if you're not happy.
And you don't vent out your anger to anybody!
Thanks,coz i am the 'lucky' one.
Thanks again for insulting me and my nursing care in front of all the doctors and everyone else in the cubicle.
To begin with,it is already so rude of you to not aknowledge my greeting and just give a f***ked up face.
Do you have a personal problem with me??
Now i understand why you go around the hospital without a friend.
How on earth did your children tolerate this kind of nonsense from you?
I admire your family for having the patience to tolerate you til this very day.
I can't believe i have to go to the ladies to cry my heart out coz' i was really angry and hurt by you!
Luckily i have my nursing managers to stand by me.
Thanks sisters.
Thanks Chandran for helping me throughout.
I know everyone hates her including the doctors but i think she is just suffering from menopausal symptoms. Poor thing.
And thanks for assigning me to all the very critical patients .My heart is always on a suspense mode throughout my working hours! aaarrrgghhh! *stress*

Not again.

Oops i did it again...

I went to watch movie again yesterday's evening...

I was not planning to coz i was meeting up with bestie for gym and suddenly I just got the urge to skip gym and go watch the Hindi movie bestie told me about...

It has been ages since i last watch a Hindi Movie...

I think after my break up with my Ex-Bf Mr Rafie Khan(Hindustani fella),I have stopped watching Hindi movies..

But well...I watched Hindi movie now not becoz of anything relating to him but becoz it seems like a good romantic love movie...

The movie maker himself is the hero and the heroine is his wife himself....

Yes..Ajay Devgan and Kajol Devgan...

in their movie called 'Me U Aur Hum'....it simply means its about You,Me and Us....

1st phase of the movie was funny..I kept on laughing....

But after the intermission....

I couldn't help but to cry ...

I cried so much....

very touching....

and the bonus part is..

its truly a happy ending...

Sometimes it is true that problems that comes by our lives is actually not too great...it depends on how an individual looks at it...

And...Love without a reason is the longest....

*sigh*

*tearing*

Niways...

Thanks you so much bestie for accompanying me...

really appreciate it..

Movie Marathon

Hey all...I know i have been missing for quite a bit...

Been doing some sorting out on my own...

Neways...

Been going to the cinema quite often nowadays...

Watch movies like Vantage Point,Rule No1, etc etc...

But the latest i watch is Definitely Maybe..

Thumbs up...

Must watch...

well only for those who is as romantic as me...well i love Romantic comedy or anything to do with Love...

But its just that i'm not that lucky in Love for the time being...well insya allah i will be blessed in Love in the future i hope..

Anyways,I rate this movie 3 out of 5...

Sweet Happy Ending...

My Tuesday.

Once i'm done with my night shift,
I met up wif bestie for our gym as early as 8 in the morning.
Done with gym at about 11am.
Not that we did a lot of exercises but becoz we couldn't stop talking(Mouth exercise).
Then,went to accompany bestie for her eyebrow threading @ Little India.
While we were on our way to head to bestie's place to help her do some highlights on her hair,
Bestie said she wanna cook pasta for me...!
Aww so touching.....
And so we headed NTUC @ Hougang mall and bought the stuffs.
She even got ice cream and banana for the desserts.
Yummylicious!
We called up Wani & Yani coz they wanted to go out for dinner but suggested they come over to bestie 's place to save that dinner's $$.
And so reach bestie new,beautiful,cosy little home @ about 2pm.
Helped prepare the ingredient for cooking later,
Started to do hair highlights for bestie and then i'm as flat as an overused Energizer batt.
Bestie asked me to sleep for awhile on her cosy bed..
Post night tiredness is really getting on me.
I slept with a blocked nose and a sore throat.
Then bestie woke me up with a sweet smile and told me that Lunch is ready...
Aww....so the very sweet of her...
had our lunch together.
It was delicious ok...!
Bestie da boleh kahwin la !! hahaha!
After lucnh bestie ask me to sleep back before yani and wani comes over.
And so i did while bestie surf te net.
Wani and Yani came over and woke me up..haha!! kecoh betol..! hahaha!
And they had their early dinner and we chit chat for awhile before i had to go meet my colleagues for a movie.
While bestie was making banana split for dessert, i had to rush over to meet up my colleagues...hmmmph!
bid goodbye and thanked bestie for the wonderful lunch and high class hospitality...hehe!
Thanks alot bestie.I really appreciate it.

Then,went to Causeway Point woodlands,met up with Izzul and Kak Midah and then headed to watch ''Duyung''.
It was funny lor...coz Apek is in it.
And the duyung is cantik! hehe!
And unfortunately,nurse manager called me up and i had to come back to work the next morning coz shortage of staff..
Oh my gosh....i didnt even sleep properly post nightly and i had to come back to work the next morning..??
*sigh* No choice.....
Reached home @ about 2245hrs ,washed up and then ZZZzzzzzz.
And today is my off day.Yahoo...I really wanna rest....

False Hope.

The Miracle i thought is happening turns out to be "passing clouds"
But i learnt alot from it.
I really do.
I won't give up.
I know there will be rainbow after the rain.
I used to be a person who always wants to please people around me but now it is about time i must learn to put myself first and think of the whole situation thus putting rationale to it and not just blindly follow my emotion and feelings coz' the brain needs to be used too..
Everything that happens has a reason behind it.

Redang Review.

I'm darker and heavier.

Doesn't that tells you that the trip was great?

Thumbs up.

Day 1

Reach Redang at about 1130am..

Me and Bestie was just amazed by the beautiful island.

We have never seen such a beautiful spot before.

We spent the day exploring around the island and making plans for the next day's activities.

But of course we didn't wait till the next day to jump into the crystal clear sea.

It was really so clear that i could really see colourful fishes swimming beneath me..

Aaaahh...Awesome!

Oh yes...did i tell you that the food sucks?

Yes it is.

Reminder to anyone going Laguna...pls bring loads of titbits,chocolates and biscuits to keep you energized throughout.

And that tells you the reason why I became heavier once i'm back from my trip right..?

Plus... me and bestie slept alot during our vacation there..haha! We just couldnt resist the temptation of sleeping on that comfy queen size bed while the wind blows the soft white curtain and enabling us to see the beautiful view of the beach right from our bed....aaahh..heavenly!

Day 2

We are all ready as early as 830am.

Went for our breakfast and then head up the recreation centre to rent our snorkeling equipments.And that was how we made friends with the Abang2 lifegurads there..well.not that we wanted to but they was just too friendly..really..

We got on the boats to travel further to the middle of the sea...

it was awesome...Abang Bob(One of the lifeguards) offered to let us sit on the edge of the boat so that we could get a better view..wow i feel macam Titanic gitu...hahah!

Throughout the snorkeling experience i was being guard by Abang Joe..cheh..personal snorkeling lessons for free..haha! I didn't ask to but they willingly wanted to guard...fine then..no harm right..infact it i will be much safer for me...

We headed back to our resort at about 12 noon and headed for our lunch.

We have another snorkeling trip at 3pm...

My snorkeling experience was really fantastic...

I regret not bringing my underwater camera!!!

It was reallly darn beautiful...I thought i could only see that kind of view in televisions only but I was really amazed that i could experience it...

I saw Nemo,sea cucumber,swordfish,some weird colorful fish,starfish,too many diff types of corals etc.

And so the lifeguards offered to bring us go see turtles and baby sharks..

And we managed to see the sharks and turtles!!!

So exciting!!

I was really tired when the clock hits 7pm.

And so we showered,get dressed and headed for our dinner...

After dinner,went around the island to see the night life...

we crash into one of the resorts Pubs coz the music was our kind of thang...*smiles*

We didnt dance though the peeps there persuaded us to...

We just sat and enjoy the music..

After that...we walked back to our resort...

The lifeguards offered to bring us to go see shooting stars but some things popped out all of a sudden and we had to call it off...

I don't really want to describe what happened...I just have to sleep with a swollen eyes and blocked nose.

Day 3

Woke up at 630am...packed our stuffs and headed for breakfast...we have to check out by 830am...Surely gonna miss the beautiful island but i can't deny the fact that i miss home too...

And of course i miss the people back home too...

Started our bus journey at about 11am and reached Singapore at about 10pm...

Me and bestie spent our time munching on titbits and chocolates and then sleep and wake up again and continue the cycle....Phew!! No wonder mom says i looked rounder when i got home...

Must go shed the extra pounds away soon...!!

In overall,

I love my Redang Experience!

Away for awhile.

I'll be off for my Redang getaway tomorrow.

I'll be back soon. Insya Allah.

Happy Birthday Bestie.

Happy Birthday Bestie.

I really hope you had a wonderful time with Me,Wani and two guy frens of yours.

I tried very best to make it a fun and a memorable birthday for you and i hope you like it.

May this year be a better and happier year for you.
Stay in good health and smile always.

I love you darling.

*Birthday Hug n Kisses*

Happenings.

I'm now enjoying my Annual Leave.
Will be on leave for 11 days...
Woots...it is long i know...
5 more days to my Redang getaway.
Counting down to that.
Bestie, I really can't wait for that moment to come la...
And it is just wonderful how i can spent this holiday with you.

Actually,there is quite a number of things that has happened for the past days & during my absence from blogging.
It is happening oh-so-fast...well maybe to all of you...
But to me..it is just at a very nice pace..
I'm thankful to god for everything that has happened and i'm really looking forward to it.
I thought this will never happen.
I sometime feels that this is a miracle.
Ahhhh....I'm so touched by it. *tearing*
As days goes by you all will surely be able to guess what is really happening... :)

Meanwhile,
I wanna prepare for my Redang getaway.

Dreadful Night.

(The Sleepy Heads)

Sigh...
My past night was dreadful...
I was so sleepy i tell you...
Maybe becoz there is no Dr Taufiq i guess..LOL
Oh yes...
my night on Monday was not that sleepy coz Dr Taufiq was on-call.
And with Izzul around we had a lots of fun talking crap in the tea room.
I laughed alot and i burped out loud infront of Dr Taufiq!!
Malunye!!!!!lol...
But its okay,i told him off by saying"Syukur Alhamdulilah...sorry eh Dr...kena biase-biasekan dengar loud burp from me k ...??" haha!!
He just laughed and said ok...
I guess he was shocked...haha!!
For sure i'm striked out from his list of future wife -to -be..!! Hahahaha!!
So that was it.
Oh yes...Izzul asked him along for our Tioman trip in May.So i guess if he is able to come for the trip,he'll probably go crazy with Gremblins.LOL
As for my past night shift...
I was so sleepy seh...
although it was only my 1st night...
so Rachel and I entertain ourself by surfing the net and take turns to sleep coz Rachel has no patient to tk care of.
Shhh...but for sure...we sleep with caution...*fingers on my lips*

I do feel it at times.

Ahmad & I was on our way home in a cab from Changi Airport.

We were talking about relationship and stuffs.

We were like talking about how nice it is being single.

I agree with him but on another point i told him that i do feel it at times.

Especially if the past relationship you had is a very happy one.

You will miss it till you cry i tell you.

And earlier on that day itself when we reach the Airport,

It just brings back all the memories.

Ahmad was like teasing me about the whole memory thingy.

Although i laughed about it but deep in my heart i do feel it.

It just hits the spot.

Everything that happened almost a year ago just flashes tru' my mind.

Those memories is just so beautiful that you don't want to think about it anymore because if I were to think of it,it'll just bring me down.

But now,I can safely say that i have already accepted everything that has happened with an open heart.

Really.

That is the best way for me to be a happier person in overall.

But you can never escape from the feeling of "I do feel it at times..."

It is natural.

Only time could heal it and who knows 5 years later i will say "I don't feel it at all..."

God knows.

Welcome back.

Home sweet home Kak Midah.

Hope you have had good time in Shanghai.

Thanks for the souvenirs.!!

And Gremblins was really dead without you...

So,let's bring Gremblins back alive aite...?? LOL

Cuzzies.

Qaiser Rayyan(Twin 1):Oh-so manje-and-always-want-my-stickmushy-kiss baby.
Qadri Rayyan(Twin 2):Oh- so -cuddly- and -tak- banyak- colok- baby.

Aryan Nur Andika-The Big Bully cum Bulu-mata- pakai-mascara baby.

Meet up with my cuzzies and nephews for Lunch and Coffee.
Miss them oh-so-much!
It has been like ages since i last saw them.
And my all my nephews are growing oh-so-fast!
I cannot stop kissing their chubby cheeks!!
You lil cuties are just so adorable la!
When will I have mine eh..?? hmmm...
Thanks cuzzies for the outing..
We shall meet up again soon alrite..??
By then,I wonder if my nephews can all start to talk baby language to me..
Aaarrgghh...comel-la -sangat!!

It was a reunion.

Alvin (ex-polymate) was admitted in SGH for an operation.

It is like a reunion for us coz i get to meet the girls even though Arifa was working.

It was easy coz Arifa was just a ward away from Alvin's admitting ward.

So,we just popped over at Arifa's ward and drag her along to visit Alvin ilegally. LOL

Felt relieved that Alvin looked so fine.He was happy to see us.It was a really speedy recovery for you huh?You shall be discharged soon i guess.

After that,Arifa had to go back to work leaving the 3 of us not knowing where to go.

Where else...??

Party for the stomach of coz!

We headed Breeks@Marina.

BBuuurrrppp..!!

Then we go window shopping and headed home after our feet were all aching.

We had fun.

All the best Bud.

Wishing you all the very best for your National Service.
CICU now have lost one manly power out of the 3 manly Nurses. :(
Tk good care of yourself ok.
We all know you're a survivor la!
I'm surely gonna miss you coz i got no more After-work-Seafood-Makaning kaki and a company to go home with...hur hur hur!
Come back two years later ok.
Way to go Gremblin Sepet!! LOL

Love my Night Duty.

My night shift on Thursday was hectic.
Patient was not doing good.
But having Dr Taufiq on call that night just enlightens me.
Yea,he did nothing so significant but his presence just perks me up.
And that was his last day in ICU i think.
After this,I won't be seeing him around as often as i did for the past month.
Can say that among all the Malay SNs around,I'm the only one who never dare to talk or chat with him.(Shy la...)
I was assigned to the Isolation room.
I drawed the curtains and did my routine suctioning and all.
Then he came in with oh-so-takleh-tahan smile...

Dr Taufiq:Hello..
Me:Hey hi...
Dr Taufiq:So mcmane semalam..??dapat tido tak?cukup tido?
(Inside my heart i was wondering...eh mcm sindir je..mentang2la last night he sang and melted my heart but that doesn't mean i cannot sleep lor infact i slept well and had sweeeet dreams :)LOL ).
Me:Hmm...okla but tak cukup ar...
Dr Taufiq:Why eh..? Kan niari you're on nihgt shift?can wake up late wat...
Me: Alah..I'm not used to wake up so late la...
Dr Taufiq: (smiles and giggles to himself..)
Then the irritating Registrar came in and kacau daun!
And this Reg. just make my night so busy lor!!Thanks eh Dr A....

And oh yes...
I must tell you this....
Dr Taufiq is really really willy willy so adorable when he is sleepy...
He is super blur lor...And his eyes is oh-so-sexay....
*melting again*

At 4am in the morning he came into my room and did his morning report...
He have this just-got-out-of-bed look and was standing and doing stretching ups and scratching his chest while listening to what the registrar is saying with his sleepy look...
OMG....i go weak in my knees i tell you...heh

And then its time for me to go home...
I said bye to him and he replied so sweetly with the manje voice....
*fanning myself*

More nights with Dr Taufiq around can...??? :)

And
Wishing that my nenek could get well soon.
I'm sorry Gremblins i couldn't join you guys at the chalet coz i have to be in AH to pay a visit to my nenek.
Hope you guys enjoy yourself ok.

Karaoke Session.

I had fun Gremblins.
Thanks for always making me smile.
We started the day by watching a movie (10 000 b.c) @ Orchard Cineleisure.
My review for it is going to be 6 out of 10.
I just like the actors and actress. So pweety and good-looking!
Apart from that i'm just trying my best to be awake as i only had 3 hours of sleep post night shift.

Headed to Ayam Penyet Ria.

Chandran gave us a treat!
Thanks Chandran.
We owe you one.

And

jeng jeng jeng...!
The highlight of the day is the Karaoke Session @ Cash Studio.
I didn't know my colleagues could sing so well! Haha! I didn't dare to sing in the first place but after much persuasion and forces...haha!! I did sing!
Guess what??
I sang duet with Dr Taufiq!!!
My oh-for-SO-long-eye-candy!!
Yes,thanks to my colleagues friendliness la that we got him to join us for the karaoke session.
Dr Taufiq melted my heart with his oh-so-manje-mendayu-dayu-voice!
Even my guys frens melted ok!
So you couldn't blame me if I was really on cloud nine hearing his voice...
I sang the'' My Heart '' song with him..(so romantic kan!)

But so torturing also coz my rapid heart beat hinders me from being able to sing out well...

But still..my colleagues says we could harmonise well..
Aww......
Look at my pic and you should know how amazed i was by Dr Taufiq's voice...
I felt feverish on that instance...LOL
And thanks to everyone for trying your very best to kena2 kan me with Him...
I still think he shall just remain as my eye candy though..
He is too perfect for me I think.LOL
But i had fun la guys.
Can i have more of such outings Gremblins...??
OK ok it would be better if it is inclusive of Dr Gremblin eh..??*cheeky smile*
But whatever it is i still love being with the Gremblins even without the Dr.
Gremblins rock my sock la...!

Something inside me.

As i looked around and think about how cheap and not-so-important Love has become,I got really scared.

People don't really treasure and cherish their Lovers as much as people did last time.

If only they could experience the life I have been through after losing someone I really Love,treasure and cherish,they would probably not take their lovers for granted.

Therefore,

Love,treasure and cherish your Loved ones before it is too late.

Love is Sacred by definition to me.

KL trip with colleagues.

The peeps:

Kak Hamidah,Kak Lela,Izzul,Sharil,Ahmad,Izzah,Raihan,Fazli(Raihan's Boyfie).
P.S. double click on the Flickr photo badge @ the side column to view the KL trip photos.

It was an absolute fun.
Thanks colleagues for making it all an awesome trip.
I laughed and eat alot!
And i miss Singapore!!! LOL

Day 1
We reached KL at about 2pm.We went to check-in into our apartment (Crowne Regeancy).It was a beautifully furnished and spacious apartment for us.We unpacked our luggage while the vainpots did some touch-up on their make up.We then headed to the Pavilion to have our Lunch.While the rest did some shopping there,Kak Midah and me headed Starbucks for our dose of caffeine and sinful cakes.
Then,we headed to Petaling street.It's like Bugis Street for the Singaporean.I bought a LV handbag.It's fake but its nice plus i could bargain from RM 160 all the way down to RM55 !! Apart from that,i didn't do much shopping.When the clock hit 10pm,I was all so excited to hit the club.And so we headed back to our apartment and refreshed ourselves.We went to Rum Jungle.I like the club settings.I didn't dance for the initial part coz the music sucks but it got better towards the later part of the night.I dance with Kak Lela while the rest joined in few minutes after.Not many eye candy but i was being eye-candied by this Malay guy who looked super horny! Get alive boy..Luckily Kak Lela pulled me away from him..he insist on coming nearer and i got Sharil to dance with me just to shoo him away...And then after i just dance in the middle of Ahmad,Izzah,Kak Lela and Kak Midah.We headed back to our apartment at around 3 am..I quickly went to wash up and jump onto my comfy bed.The rest followed in one by one.

Day 2
Woke up around 9am.Kak Midah,Kak Lela,Izzul and Ahmad were already up..It was so sweet of Ahmad to be the 1st one to wake up and went down to coffee bean to get each of us a hot chocolate.Thanks Sweetie.And thanks to Kak Midah too for buying the roti canai!! I love the sambal tumis!! So shioookk..!After breakfast we all got ready for our 2nd day outing.As usual we have to wait for Izzah & Raihan to doll themselves up before they went oout of the apartment.LOL
We headed to KL Tower.It was an awesome scenery from up there.After much photo-takings,rest and shopping there,we then headed to Secret Recipe to celebrate Izzul's belated 25th Birthday and good farewells for Ahmad coz he have to leave to serve the nation.Children's ICU will surely gonna miss you.
After the celebration,we split into 2 groups.the other group went to shop again while my group went around Berjaya Time Square.We bought DVDs and went back to our apartment to watch Jackass 2.It was super disgustingly-hilarious.I have to laugh my lungs out i tell you.We then had our supper of sinful food again(Mary Brown).After supper,the other group got back after much shopping and then we all squeezed into the master bedroom to have our movie marathon.I fell asleep soon after the marathon has just begun.But i wasn't that bad ok coz Ahmad slept right after supper even before the marathon started. LOL

Day 3
Woke up at around 10am.Packed our luggage and headed A&W.I miss my Rootbeer float and Coney Dog.And time flies when we are all having a good time.It was then time for us to get home.I was excited coz I miss my family and my bestie.We reached Singapore at around 7pm.we had our dinner at the old woodlands place and then took a cab home.So happy to be home! Mom was very happy to see me too..and she said i have put on weight only after 3 days...Aww...I know mom..its okay...I will go work it out soon ok...And i 'm glad you love the blouse i bought for you...!!

And now,I can't wait for my Beach getaway to Redang with my bestie.
Soonest.

Goodbye for awhile.

Psst...
I'm off to KL tomorrow morning.
I'm surely gonna be missed by many...
Especially my mommy...
''Mom,pls don't call me crying coz you miss me so much..."
"Ifa,pls be a good girl when i'm not there to remind you to ok..."
"And to my relatives,I'm sorry i couldn't come to Abang Man's wedding this weekend,praying that everything will run smoothly and as planned..."
"Take Care people..."
I'll be back soon and will update you about my trip there alrite...
Praying for a safe journey to and fro... :)

V Day.

Love is in the air.

I see a lot of bouquets,heart-shaped ballooons,gifts,hugs & kisses around me.

I envy the couples.

But i never felt bad about myself not having a soulmate though,

infact,i felt grateful i could spend my V day with my beloved bestie.

We too had a great day filled with Love.

We started off well with a sumptious dinner @ Swensens and headed off with our booked tix to watch P.S I Love You.

We cried throughout the movie.

It moved me so much.

It somehow did hit me coz i am also in the same transition stage just like the wife who lost her husband.

I cried till my Nachos got wet..

It is really so touching...

The last letter the Hubby wrote to her was some kind similar to what Someone have ever said to me.

"Never be afraid to fall in Love again..."

And his wife and me has got the same solution to our problem...

we still keep our loved one close to our heart,work hard in life,get closer to family & frens,go travelling and just hope we could fall in love again...

the only different thing about her story from mine is....her hubby is dead but died while still loving her but as for me,his Love for me just died and now he is gone not from the world but away from my life....

Life is wonderful isn't it...?

We see and learnt a lot from living it....

Happy V Day to everyone.

Loving It.

Its booked.

Yes,we have opt for Pulau Redang for our short trip.

Its gonna be from 29th Mar-1st April.

Arifa & Me is so so looking forward to the vacation.

We really2 hope we could enjoy ourself as much as we could.

It has been a very rocky journey for us for the past months...

and Damn!!

V day is coming!

It sucks ok!

Everywhere we go its all about V day!!

It hurts ok..

all those sweet memories...

and last year was the only year i was celebrating V day with someone really special.

And it is like still so fresh in my mind now...

But whatever it is,

Arifa and me is going on a date that day coz i'm having my off day and i don't want to stay at home and wet my pillow with all the tears..!!

We just need to go out have fun and be proud that we are singles and loving it....!!

And i'm loving my new Digi-Cam!!

Cam-whoring session last night was fun!

I was using it for the first time last night

It was my camera virgin shots lor!!

LOL...

So sick.

It was so bad that i had to take a sick leave from work on Friday...

There goes my night shift $$$...!

Damn!

But i really can't help it...

I had chills and body aches..

I felt very very sick....

I looked so pale....

I went to see the doc..

The doc suggested i have 2 days MC but i told him i just need a day coz i will be having my off day the very next day...

I was advice to take sufficient rest,

covered with antibiotics,

plus some pain reliever and of coz

cough mixture...

And after 3 days of resting....

Thank god that i feel so much better now...

am still coughing though...

but my body was refreshed after days of rest...

i have been sleeping on my bed for the past days....

the meds really make me drowsy...

i love it...

its been so long since i had a long proper sleep....

I just hope i would recover totally soon enough.

Sicky Missing You.

I can't sleep now...
its already 4 am....
my body feels cold but i am perspiring like mad....
I truly know that i am sick...
It has been long since i fell sick...
Its about time i guess...
And you know me...
when i do fall sick,its gonna be quite bad....

I feel so emo now...
I dont know why...
I cried just now....
Is it because i fell sick and thats why i am feeling down or is it just becoz i truly misses him so much...?
I really don't know...
I miss you...i really really do...
and i really meant what i say....
I wish he is beside me now...
His face is so clear in my mind...
his smile,his sepet eyes,his hair....
*tearing*
Aaaarrgghh....i'm not going to put myself in denial again...!

I wanna recover from my flu & fever quickly...

I should be sleeping now coz i'm doing 2 nights straight starting from tomorrow...
Hope i can survive...

*shake leg*
i usually do that when i can't sleep....
it did help sometime...

The Mist.

Please watch this movie!
I rate this 4 out of 5...
It is really a good movie..
Worth the money for those who thinks movie-watching is a waste of money...
I don't watch movie frequently too but bcoz Ifa drag me to watch...I had no choice..
But i don't regret it!
It is really damn good..
I meant...Duh~ it is adapted from a novel by Stephen King...for sure it'll be good..! :)
I was cursing when i watch the first few earlier parts but my anger just changed at the end of it...
I teared ok....
I was really2 touched lor...
So,go and watch quick!!

And oh yes...

Last week we had a reunion with Wani aka Dumblonde...haha!!
Coz she really ave this blonde hair and a blonde atitude lor..!!
So no offence eh wani...
Infact you are always known to be one since our poly days ..!
We headed to Indochine...
I was drag from work ok...
they are all dressed up and i'm like one construction worker lor..!!
Had no choice lor..just go la..
They asked me to try alcoholic drinks,
but
It is always a no-no for me!
I can be having fun and be crazy at times but i know my own limits...
So they had theirs and i had mocktail...
they had two glasses and already showing a drunkard symptoms...
and therefore i had to stop them and then drag them home...
haha!!
*sigh*
actually i was really not in favor with them having to be a bit drunk..coz
if not becoz of that...
it was all a perfect day for us...
well,life is never perfect rite...



And btw...
2 more weeks till i go KL!!
counting down to the day...

That much endurance.

This is funny....

Newbies.

Firstly,

I bought a new Digi Cam from Canon....

I'm loving it...!!!

Secondly,

I rebonded my hair...

It is super silky black now...!

Wanna touch and feel it..??

haha!! You will not wanna let go...

And Thirdly,

I went to Night Safari with Peter aka Sugar Daddy...haha!!

Just kidding...

It was fun...!!! though Peter was tired and sleepy due to his busy day..

Well...what can i say..he is after all a Business Expat...

I wanted to take a pic of him...but he really is not a vainpot like me lor..!! haha!!

I loike...humble-charming-gentleman-intelligent-rich and grayish-greenish eyes...hmmm.. haha!! *wake myself up to reality*

I can't stand the crowd there...!

Even Peter was a bit shock with their reaction...

Peter was holding my soft,smooth hands(according to what Peter says) throughout the night.

The people there which consists of tourist from Banladesh and India were like staring at us as if we owe them a billion dollars lor..

There is this one indian man who stands beside Peter and try to create conversation with Peter...

Well, Peter being a friendly chap just entertains him but he is really asking questions like...

"Is that your girlfriend?(Pointing his finger towards me)

She is very pretty...you are lucky..."

I was like..what the hell???(cursing in my heart)

Oh my god...we are just friends for your info Mr Busybody!!!

And Peter being mean says:

Oh yea..she is my girlfriend...hugging me oh so tightly..and brushing his hands tru my hair...

Haha!! Good act-up Peter..! Bravo! haha!! We just laugh after the man walks away...he look pretty pissed off...oh well..he is just jealous..!

But hey,I got excellent services from the Night Safari staffs...well maybe coz i'm with Peter lor...

If not,they'll just shut me off from their sight...

But i enjoyed my night...

And thanks Peter coz you taught quite a fair bit of info about the animals there...you are so knowledgeable...

And thanks for the night...Ben n Jerry ice cream tasted extra delicious when i'm enjoying it with you...hahah!!

Well now you are back to PNG....

wonder when we can meet up again...

if we are fated to lor...

Tk gd care of yourself there yea...

Retail Therapy.

I know i'm crazy to buy 2 parfum all at once.

But i can always change Parfum according to my mood lor...

Ralph Lauren is for fresh and sporty day,Boss Femme is for feeling sexy and horny day...!!

*Grins*

I just shop till i almost drop...

My shopping bags are like too much lor!!

Hahaha!!

Well,it's been so long since i last did some shopping...

I just bought stuffs which are necessary like shoes,clothes,parfum,lingerie etc.

I like my pay now!!

So the worth it!!

LOL...

Duh~ I started night and 12 hours shift already mah....

Looking forward to many many more payday!!

I'm really excited for next week...

I will be having 3 days off from work from tuesday to thursday!!

I'm going Night Safari with someone!!

Oh ok...his name is Peter...and that is all you need to know ok...

Peter Parker?? Also can la..hahaha!!

It is so exciting..!!

The last time i went to the Night Safari was when i was only like 12 years old!!!

Oh my...i feel so old...

now i'm turning 22 lor!!

10 years back you know!!

Wonder if the Animals recognizes me eh?

*Silly Look*

And i want to eat Ben and Jerry ice cream too!!!

Night Safari,here i come....!

Which One?

Tioman Island? Redang Island?


Me and My Bestie AKA Cho-co-la-tes (Arifa) is planning for a short vacation this coming March...
But we are a first timer traveller and therefore we decided to opt for a getaway which is not too far from home...
And
We want a resort getaway of coz!!
So we'll be coming to a conclusion on which resort we both should be heading to...
And plus We gonna celebrate Ifa's 21st birthday there too....
Aww...so memorable 21st birthday....
Even though its only the two of us...
But its surely gonna be a fun,memorable and romantic vacation for us...! LOL

And I 'm going to splurge on my upcoming KL trip this February too...
I don't think i wanna do shopping there...
Probably just wanna have fun...??
Well,my Malay colleagues will all be going...
So why not right..??
Hmm...
But I am still excited over my March vacation...
Hopefully i can change my Annual Leave slot...
I really need a break before i break...

Workhaholic

Work has been really hectic and busy...

Turnover rates are super fast...

I'm like working 4 days(12 hours shift) consecutively..

Phew ...

tell me about it....

I looked as sick as the kids there....

*shakes head*

..................................

To the Abused Kid,

Rest in peace darling...

* Reciting Al-Fateha*

And to the Biological father of the kid,

It must have been really hard for you...

You looked so down and hopeless yesterday...

I feel you..

I am just speechless to talk about the Mom and so called 'Daddy'(Mom's Boyfriend) of the kid...

*roll eyes*

Where is the Love?

I was in the bus on my way home from my Night Shift...

I pondered upon the situation and try putting myself in their shoes...

I couldn't understand still...

Children are like the most precious gift from god...

You may say that i've not yet become a mother and i don't understand how it is

but my mom is a mother and no matter how bad situation goes,she never ever abuses her priviledge of being a parent...

same goes to my Dad...

But things doesn't works the same for this particular family...

The Scenario is:

A young parents with a 3 year old Kid...

The 3 yr old kid admitted in the A&E department,

Unconsious,pupils fixed and dilated,bruises all over.

Main diagnosis: Non-Accidental Child Abuse

The child looks really bad...

I was like holding back my tears when i saw the poor kid in that kind of condition...

I just couldn't understand the parents...

What 's with them...?Where is the Love..??

And whenever i see them along the corridor,

I feel like going up to them and just give a very disgusted look & curses...

I really tried my very best to understand their situation but it couldn't be that very bad right..??

I meant you always have the right to lay hands on your child if he misbehaves but there is always a limit right..??

where did all your patience gone to..??

This is really too much....

Now the child is like fighting for his life...

And i could sense that he will not be able to make it...

With all the Inotropes and ventilator support withdrawn,this poor kid will surely go...

Well at least he will be in heaven and not in the hell of his family...

I'm really sorry for my harsh words but i just couldn't help it..

It hurts me alot to see kids suffering and it hurts me more coz I'm very drawn to kids...

On a more positive note,

I feel so grateful to my parents for all the Love that they have showered me.

And i really think that these experiences being a nurse for the sick children will make me be a better parents in the future..

Insya Allah....

A new day starting from tomorrow.

I feel so at peace with myself now...
I learnt a lot hearing from what he says about my atitude...
I know where is my weakness,fault and flaws now...
We both learnt from our past relationship...
Well at least i cleared my mind off everything and willing to face life with strong faith and Love for my beloved family especially my dearest Mom...

I'm glad we finally meet and cleared all the misunderstandings that was left hanging for a moment...
You've been through what i was going tru for several times already and i think it is about time that you finally find the bliss and happiness in a relationship...
As for me,this experience is like an event for seeking and finding my inner strength...
And now, i also know the true meaning of Love-Sacrifice...
Sacrificial act for someone you love is the biggest thing you could do in order to make your loved ones and youself happy...

I'm now looking forward to live each day with the Love of my family and frens...
God-willing i will be able to meet my soulmate in time to come...
And now,I just want to dote on and pamper my mom coz i feel guilty for having to let her feel and bear the pain together with me for all this while...
I may not know really how it feels for a mother to see her crying daughter everyday but i am sure it is hurting...
and mom,you really don't deserve that....forgive me for that mom...
I could see how happy you was just now when you came back home with Dad and seeing me at the door with a smile on my face...

I just want to thank god for everything....
And i will continue to pray for the best of my family,his family,him and myself...
and although my Love wasn't fated to be,i feel so grateful that it is indeed a happy ending with a slightly different twist to the storyline...*smile*

Someone will always be a Memori Indah in my life...

Tomorrow is definitely gonna be a new day...

Mom's the best.

Conversation between Me and Mom early this morning
(Translated Version)
Mom:Why are your eyes swollen...?
Me: not enough sleep maybe...
Mom:But you're already asleep by 12 midnite which is not usually the case for you coz the earliest you would go to bed is around 1am...?
Me:I'm not feeling well...
Mom:Did you cried the whole night?
Me:*trying not to hear*
Mom: I saw you were stuck to the comp and then the next thing is i saw you were already in bed last night...
Me:*burst into tears* ( And then told mom about the mails)
Mom:Isn't it good? Someone you love is leading a happy life and will soon be settling down with his new partner that is fated for him...you are not fated for him and you cannot be sad about it...in this world,we are made for someone we are fated to be with and you have to accept that. You cannot keep on crying and be sad about it..it will not benefit you and it will also make him feel bad and guilty...don't do that to people dear,you must open up your heart and be willing to let go of the past and make everybody happy including yourself ok?
I know you still Love him...as your mom,i know you too well...you can always Love him but try to erase the feelings off as time goes by and try to open up your heart to someone who could Love you like how you would Love him...you can always pray everyday for your Loved ones but don't you forget to pray for yourself too...pray to god that you will be able to erase those feelings and that your Soulmate will come by soon...
Can you pls stop crying like a kid..?? Remember everything that i have just said...
Me:*nods head*Do you think it is okay for me to go and meet him to settle things for the last time..?
Mom: Please go...as soon as you get home from meeting him..i really hope eveything will be cleared off and you'll be better.
Me: I really hope for that too.
Mom:Ok,i'm going to work now..you have a gd rest at home or go out with your frens if you feel lonely ok ?
Me:*kiss her hand and both cheeks* i think i 'll just be at home..I just want to rest coz i'm working tomorrow..
Mom:Ok

Night Survivor.

I survived my Night...!!

It was peaceful....
I love working at night...
I could even find the time to read storybooks...
unlike my day shift,I can't even find a time to sit...!!
I'm loving my night shift for now...*grin*



Widest Sleepy Smile

Wider Sleepy Smile

Wide Sleepy Smile

Finally asleep @ 12 noon-6pm

To my own heart.

My heart,

Pls try to be strong and cast away all the pain,hurt and misery that has been coming in your way ok?
Pls try to recover quickly ok...?
Pls try to not make me cry always ok...??
Pls try to be less sensitive to stuffs ok...??
Pls pls pls to stop breaking yourself into pieces ok???
Pls don't shut yourself forever ok..???
And
Pls pls pls pls...let the past pass....pls...
Don't you feel hurt seeing me almost dying...?
So my heart,
Pls reconsider what i have just said ok....????

To readers:
Pardon me coz i'm just doing and intra-communication with my heart.

New Year,New stuffs.

I will start 12 hours shift tomorrow...like finally!!!
And to add thrill to it,my first slot is my Night shift!!
We shall see if i can survive.....


And I have already replied to his mail.....
Hope that will be fine...

I'm going out for a movie date with Mr Farhan AKA Abang Charming...LOL
and i hope you better not show your tired face coz today is suppose to be your sleeping
day after your night shift...and you are the one who wants to go out today ok... haha!

And to My bestie Ifa,
We'll go and find a laptop for you soon ok...
Maybe on Tuesday k ..
I miss you already....haha!!

Simply said.

*tearing*

the moment i saw your name...

but deep beneath my heart..

I utter a prayer of relief to know that you are doing fine

coz all this while i'm living life everyday with a prayer for your well-being...

As i already told myself that i dont want to intrude myself into your life anymore because

i know if i were to do that,i will never be able to let you go ...

If we are gonna meet,

I truly want to let it all off.

But

always in a peaceful,rational way.

It is always the solution to solve problems.

If we are not gonna meet,

it shall be what it has been...

as long as i know i do not disturb you and cause any inconvenience

and

as long as i know Love of my life is living happily-

I am always thankful for that..

As for now i'm just waiting for a reply from you...