Iftar Session.

Holiday Inn Parkview Hotel was our choice.
My muslim colleagues and me had our iftar session together.
It was my first time seeing some of my colleagues with their beloved family..
Cik Sakirah,Kak Hamidah,Radiah,Nur Raihan,Eza,Izzul,Ahmad and me was there to break our fast together.
We had our stomach filled with almost all the food prepared on the buffet table.
I was super bloated i tell you.
But worth it.
It was a great day guys.


And tomorrow will be independence day for me.
No more buddy system.
I have to work alone now.
scary.
But i have to do it.
Praying that everything will be ok.
Insya Allah

Hungry me.

Can you hear my tummy growling....???

2 more hours till i swallow a horse!

In god's hand.

I just lost my maternal aunt 4am just now.
Everything was so sudden.
I could sense that she was not doing good when i came and visit her yesterday in ICU.
Septicemia(Infection of the blood) has affected many of her main organs.
Her BP was very low and to see her in that condition was just a painful thing.
I couldn't help but to break down.
It was surprising for many of relatives when they saw me crying as i'm not close with her.
We only meet once in a year during Hari Raya.
But my sensitive inner beings just have to make me feel so sad.
The kiss that i gave to Cik Ros on her forehead was really a very touchy moment.
Maybe to many of you,being a nurse somehow makes the nurse some sort of immune to death or lost of someone,
but that is not the case.
I'm only human and my emotions are very strong.
I may not have high IQ but my EQ is.

To my dearest :
Abang Airie,Abang Nan and Cik Merli,

Pls remain strong and patient.
We will always have Cik Ros in our prayers.

Girl's Day Out.

It is really strange of me to not stay at home nowadays.
I have been going out and coming back home late.
I just feel better when i'm out either with my friends or just alone.
My colleagues and i had our girl's day out just now.
We went shopping till its time for our break fast.
We were too tired to walk around after our tummy were filled with food and so we headed Starbuck Coffee to slack.
We chat,gossip,laugh and crap about everything.

And i feel lucky as i was given a chance to get to know Nur Raihan's bestie which is Shikin
(not in the pic).
I feel strong after hearing the story of your late boyfren.
If i were you I wouldn't have been in my right mind i guess.
We both are in some sort the same situation.
We lost someone we love so much,we even lost the love we used to get.
And we both faces long-term bad depression!
And you're living life normally now after a year past.
But we know,we will never be able to forget it till we die.
We even have the same perception that it will take a miracle for us to be back in Love.
That future partner for us must really be someone really special.
Insya Allah.
You inspired me.
Thanks a lot for sharing it with me.

I'll cry my last for you.

I can't help but to pour out my tears again...
Don't ask me why...
nothing new...
still about him...
I'm crying extra hard tonight...
Hope I'll cry my last for him...

Sinful Indulgence.

I know it is sinful but ignorance is a bliss! *guilty smile*
It feels so good in my mouth...
it even melts all over my fingers...
i lick my fingers slowly...till the very last bit....
aaarrrhhhhh.......oh baby that tasted so good...!
*wink*

Think i really look like a big,round,cute ,chubby potato right now.
But hey,i'm better now.
I can feel a bit of bliss at least...
So...can i have more doughnut puurrrrleaassseee...???
*pouts*

Mom's Birthday.

Photo taken at Vivocity in March 2007

Death of my Cellphone.

My phone has died!
Heart-wrenching!
I have only used it for like 3 months!
All due to the unzipped bag during the heavy rainfall...
I have to pay 300 over bucks to send for servicing!
I was like-What the hell...???
I might as well get a new decent phone at that kind of price.
But for now,i will just have to stick with my old Motorola phone coz i don want to burn a hole in my pocket.
I need to plan for the upcoming Hari Raya spendings.
Haiz...

And oh yes!
I'm on leave again!
a total of 3 days used!!
Arrrgghh!
Whatever la..
I'm just being practical here.
Since the grand total is like so pathetic..
I might as well stay at home and rest right?
No point going to work if there is not much which i can do or learn right..?
So i'm just gonna be a bookworm..a bigger bookworm with a bigger and thicker book??
*nerdy smile*

Unwilling Leave.

I'm on leave today...not because i wanted it but because CICU is overstaffed!
Haha!!
Wah lau eh...they have to eat up my precious Annual leave just beause the ratio of nurse to patient is overnumbered!
So the not fair!
And tomorrow i'm on leave again coz i have to attend the ward meeting and unfortunately i'm on PM shift...and so the best solution is take leave lor!! haiyah!!
My leave is getting lesser and lesser!
And the leave was not put into good use like travelling out of country or go for an interesting outings lor!! Moreover now is fasting month and i would usually be spending time at home lor...heart pain seh..!
Whatever la...
I just want to know i'll get my leave during Hari Raya and late December.
That's it!

And oh yes...
the current novel i'm reading is getting interesting la..! I loike! *wink wink*

Tagged.

1. (the person who tagged you is)- Nurasilah
2. (your relationship him/her is)- She is my bestie's sis & used to be sec schmates n polymates.
3. (5 impressions you have of him/her)-Petite,Sweet,Fair,laughing freak & a loyal friend.
4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you)-hmm...hehe provide some info on Metty or Ranjeeta or some people whom i'm interested to know about. haha!
5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you)- "you still have me..."
6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will)- huh..?? Not until i've turn into a Bi la...haha!
7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improved on will be)-Just be faithful with me Honey..haha!
8. (if he/she becomes your enemy,you will)- I can't see the possibilities we will...well if it happens...i'll promise i'll be a good enemy to you. haha!
9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be)-Hmm..how about if u kill my bestie which is her own sister without a valid reason?? hahaha! scary seh...!
10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is)- Make her happy and pray for her soulmate to come soon so she won't be lonely like me?? haha!
11. (your overall impression of him/her is)- She is a girl who has a lot to offer.A fun someone to be with..Loveable character and of course,my sweet little lady.
12. (how you think people around you will feel about you)- Emo..Weird..need a psychiatrist?? I guess so.haha!
13. (the characteristic you love about yourself is)-my strong empathy.
14. (the characteristic you hate about yourself is)-A softie...a truly qualified softie..!
15. (the most ideal person you want to be is)-I just want to be myself.
16. (for people that care and like you, say something to them)-Thank you so much darlings..will always have you all in my prayers k ..*smile*

17. (pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you)

1.Apis
2.Belle
3.Colleagues
4.Elene
5.Fareha
6.Huda
7.Jannah
8.Jasmine
9.Salihin
10.Silah


(Who is no.6 having relationship with?)-Huda ?? I think she is happily single rite dear?
(Is no.9 a male/female)- Male
(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?)-If they are Lesbos then it is..if not,forget it.hehe!
(When was the last time u had chat with no.3?)-While we are having follow up sessions @ KKH.
(What kind of music does no.8 like?)-haha! Jasmine? She sings weird songs..don ask me to investigate further..!haha!
(Does no.1 has any siblings?)- Apis? Yeah..he got a younger bro,and two pretty elder sisters.
(Will you woo no.3)- huh?No.3 is combination of all my colleagues..simply said all the malay hott babes in KKH?? haha!
(How about no.7)- No Dun worry..I'm still straight.haha!
(Is no.4 single?)- Elene? Nope.This sweety has a loving boyfie.
(What's the surname of no.5?)-Alahai...Fareha....i don't remember la..so sorry
(What's the hobby of no.4?)- I guess she loves hanging out and go shopping with her boyfie?? yea.
(Do no.5 and 9 get along?)- No la.They are a total stranger to each other.
(Where is no.2 studying at?)- She working la..we are the CICU Nurses who ever studied in NYP.heh.
(Say something casual about no.1)-Da jadi Abang Polis la dia!! haha!
(Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?)- haha! Jasmine will surely smack my big round ass! haha!
(Where does no.9 live?)- Somewhere in woodlands..haha! i dunno exactly la.
(What color does no.4 like?)-hmm...baby blue i think...
(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?)- Aiyoh...they're strangers la..
(Does no.7 like no.2?)- hmm dunno leh..if they get to kno each other..they probably would.
(How did you get to know no.2)-My colleague,crapping buddy!*wink*
(Does no.1 have any pets?)-Dun think so...dunno if the girls are his pets..?? hehe.!
(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?)- It is a sure thing for her boyfie..right Jannah? *Wink wink*

Thanks Silah for giving me some brain exercises...! I think it is a bit awake now..*grins*

Avoiding tears.

Everytime i open up the wardrobe door,
my eyes will surely focus on the cute,pink paper bag.
I know if I were to open up and relearn about it ,I'll cry a river.
Just now,I got home at 3:30pm.
I thought i want to clear and tidy up my wardrobe since i got some time to spare.
I know I am fasting and that I will not cry and ''discounted'' the price of my fast if i were to open up the paper bag.
As I slowly took out the content in it,I became so weak.
The words on the card,the words on the beautiful novel,the dried white rose,the dried white lily,the engraved ring& the green jersey which i had to give back to his bro coz his bro needs to be in a soccer game wearing it.
Everything just flashes through my mind.
As soon as i know i couldn't take it any further,I quickly put everything back in place and think of something comical e.g the lameness and crappiness of Muttons to midnight(98.7fm) etc. to help clear my mind off.
I did teared but not cry.
And i didn't manage to do anything to my wardrobe as i purposely grab my novel and read it till i fell asleep for awhile.
I now wonder,when on earth am I able to tidy up my wardrobe??
And till when am i going to avoid all these??

Weird.

I feel so light suddenly.
I could actually smile seeing his pic with his new special someone.
They really look so loving together...
So the romantic...
I could feel the bliss they're having...
Even though i should feel hurt,
I'm glad i'm not this time...
Coz it just makes me feel so happy to see lovers being happy with each other.
Even though I'm alone and not in a relationship bliss,
I am still thankful that I'm loved by the people around me.
Oh yes...
I'm so excited to sahur later!!!
Haha!
Happy Fasting!
Oh ya i'll be breaking fast at work tomoro !
*Sob sob*
I wanna break fast with my family...
nvm la...i'm used to being independent.
When you've got to work,you've got to work it right...*wink*

So sick.

Oh man...
For once,
Let me announce that i already deleted my Friendster account!
Stop bugging me to open up new account.
I'm sick of it all...
If you want to get updates on me,
just visit my blog or you could just give me a buzz rite..?
What is so difficult?

Ramadhan.

I want to take this opportunity to wish all the Muslims
Selamat Berpuasa (Happy Fasting)
Semoga kita semua mendapat nikmat,hikmah dan petunjuk di bulan yang mulia ini.
Sama-samalah kita menjalankan ibadah dengan hati yang ikhlas.

Apart from that,
It was a day well-spent.
I went to all the places i need to go.
The Bank,NTUC and Singpost.
My intention to read my novels and unwind at East Coast Park failed coz the weather ain't good. And so i did manage to grab a novel which is fairly thick in diameter!
It is basically a funny novel about a 34 yr old single woman.
Well,i have just got started.So far so good. Hopefully i could finish it. *grins*
And i did manage to spring clean my house plus I did the cooking just now...!phew!
It was a tiring day for me but worth it!! *nods head*
Back to work tomorrow and oh yes I'll be working till next week's Friday...
Man...this is torturing la..!
My schedule sucks la.
But it's ok la.
I work hard now before i can have quite a long leave for my Hari Raya! Yeah!
So now i'll just shuddup and work.

Errands to run.

Tomorrow is off day!
I have many errands to run for myself and mom.
I need to go to so many places all in a day.
Since i will be out the whole day alone,
I might as well end my day in any library to borrow some books.
And are you thinking what i am thinking??
Actually,i was thinking of going to somewhere peaceful like East Coast Park to read my books & unwind.
But it is a bit too far & the weather is uncertain..
Hmmm..i'll see how it goes tomorrow...

And oh yes,
to my 3 darlings Annabelle,Jasmine & Rachel
safe journey to and fro Vietnam yea...
I'll be missing you guys...
And if it is not because the date clashes with Ramadhan,I would probably be enjoying myself there with you guys!!
Well,it's ok, maybe some other time..
Do enjoy yourself there!
Bring back lots of photos to share with me ya!!
I'll be working my ass out in ICU for this whole week without you guys to crap around with..!*sob sob*
Tk care Darlings!

Lunch Date.

Thanks for asking me out after so long of being stucked with work & home.
It was a nice outing.
Thanks for the day.
I really didn't thought we will go to Sentosa actually.
It was spontaneous.
Well,we enjoyed ourself.
Especially when we got a free lucky entry to the Images of Singapore.
(Thanks to Dearest Huda coz she works there!)
We really feel like a tourist for once.
Thanks again Salihin, for the lunch treat.It was delicious.
Even though we felt very tired coz we walked alot,I really get to de-stress just by looking at the beautiful scenery.
And i want to apologize if at times i got a bit distracted with my own thoughts.
It really takes time for me to get back to where i was.
I'm taking a step at a time.
Nursing a broken heart isn't as easy as nursing a patient.
I hope you would understand.
Even you yourself agreed that you would broke down if you were in my position right.?
So i guess you'd understand.
Well...looking forward to more of such outings with you yea?
*grins*

Rest in peace.

May your soul rest in peace my little Love.
Although it may be a pain for us to see u leave but your sufferings alll this while has made us realised how wonderful your life would be up there.
I really hold back my tears when i see your room was emptied just when i was about to sign in for work in the morning.
But i'm glad ur sufferings has ended.
I miss touching and caressing ur little fingers and how adorable you look even though you're sedated.
Rest in peace Love...

Dark Circles.

My dearest patient,

I will be praying for you.
I know you are not doing good there.
Please stay strong ok...?
However if it is really time for you to go,please go with all the peace and calmness...
All of your loved ones will always be having you in our prayers.
*praying for you*

Apart from that...
I'm getting worried with my dark circles.
It is really so obvious.
People could notice it with just a glance.
And some even could say that i look like a suffering kid!
Ouch! truth hurts!
All thanks to the endless tears and sleepless nights la...
I think i wanna go try home remedies like putting slices of cucumber,cold packs,tea bags...etc..
Who knows it might work eh??
Do drop me some tips if you have ya? I'll really appreciate and be grateful to you. *grin*

Oh yes..
gtg study for my IV test tomorrow.
wish me luck ya~!
Daa!

President's Challenge.

26 August, Sunday

Congratulations to CICU.

We won the best costume award!

Let's use that money to top up our ration in the tea room ok? *grin*

Imagine how weird it is for us to run 8km with the scrubs and that cute little missy hats??

But we made it !

We even won the OT team over even though their costumes looks super fancy eh?

Pity them also leh..they put so much effort and ours lookes so simple.

We just have to print out badges and make our missy hats only...kind of not fair to them also eh..?

But hey, maybe the judges know that we worked extra hard by staying over night in hospital and sleep on the cold floor causing ache to our backs!!!

haha!

Niways cheers for that fun day!

And oh my..did i told u guys that i get to wave goodbye real closely to our Mr President just because i just got back from the toilet???What a luck...feel so honoured that he really waves to me so personally...! haha! Big deal!!*rolls eyes*

Looking forward to more of such events la.