That much endurance.

This is funny....

Newbies.

Firstly,

I bought a new Digi Cam from Canon....

I'm loving it...!!!

Secondly,

I rebonded my hair...

It is super silky black now...!

Wanna touch and feel it..??

haha!! You will not wanna let go...

And Thirdly,

I went to Night Safari with Peter aka Sugar Daddy...haha!!

Just kidding...

It was fun...!!! though Peter was tired and sleepy due to his busy day..

Well...what can i say..he is after all a Business Expat...

I wanted to take a pic of him...but he really is not a vainpot like me lor..!! haha!!

I loike...humble-charming-gentleman-intelligent-rich and grayish-greenish eyes...hmmm.. haha!! *wake myself up to reality*

I can't stand the crowd there...!

Even Peter was a bit shock with their reaction...

Peter was holding my soft,smooth hands(according to what Peter says) throughout the night.

The people there which consists of tourist from Banladesh and India were like staring at us as if we owe them a billion dollars lor..

There is this one indian man who stands beside Peter and try to create conversation with Peter...

Well, Peter being a friendly chap just entertains him but he is really asking questions like...

"Is that your girlfriend?(Pointing his finger towards me)

She is very pretty...you are lucky..."

I was like..what the hell???(cursing in my heart)

Oh my god...we are just friends for your info Mr Busybody!!!

And Peter being mean says:

Oh yea..she is my girlfriend...hugging me oh so tightly..and brushing his hands tru my hair...

Haha!! Good act-up Peter..! Bravo! haha!! We just laugh after the man walks away...he look pretty pissed off...oh well..he is just jealous..!

But hey,I got excellent services from the Night Safari staffs...well maybe coz i'm with Peter lor...

If not,they'll just shut me off from their sight...

But i enjoyed my night...

And thanks Peter coz you taught quite a fair bit of info about the animals there...you are so knowledgeable...

And thanks for the night...Ben n Jerry ice cream tasted extra delicious when i'm enjoying it with you...hahah!!

Well now you are back to PNG....

wonder when we can meet up again...

if we are fated to lor...

Tk gd care of yourself there yea...

Retail Therapy.

I know i'm crazy to buy 2 parfum all at once.

But i can always change Parfum according to my mood lor...

Ralph Lauren is for fresh and sporty day,Boss Femme is for feeling sexy and horny day...!!

*Grins*

I just shop till i almost drop...

My shopping bags are like too much lor!!

Hahaha!!

Well,it's been so long since i last did some shopping...

I just bought stuffs which are necessary like shoes,clothes,parfum,lingerie etc.

I like my pay now!!

So the worth it!!

LOL...

Duh~ I started night and 12 hours shift already mah....

Looking forward to many many more payday!!

I'm really excited for next week...

I will be having 3 days off from work from tuesday to thursday!!

I'm going Night Safari with someone!!

Oh ok...his name is Peter...and that is all you need to know ok...

Peter Parker?? Also can la..hahaha!!

It is so exciting..!!

The last time i went to the Night Safari was when i was only like 12 years old!!!

Oh my...i feel so old...

now i'm turning 22 lor!!

10 years back you know!!

Wonder if the Animals recognizes me eh?

*Silly Look*

And i want to eat Ben and Jerry ice cream too!!!

Night Safari,here i come....!

Which One?

Tioman Island? Redang Island?


Me and My Bestie AKA Cho-co-la-tes (Arifa) is planning for a short vacation this coming March...
But we are a first timer traveller and therefore we decided to opt for a getaway which is not too far from home...
And
We want a resort getaway of coz!!
So we'll be coming to a conclusion on which resort we both should be heading to...
And plus We gonna celebrate Ifa's 21st birthday there too....
Aww...so memorable 21st birthday....
Even though its only the two of us...
But its surely gonna be a fun,memorable and romantic vacation for us...! LOL

And I 'm going to splurge on my upcoming KL trip this February too...
I don't think i wanna do shopping there...
Probably just wanna have fun...??
Well,my Malay colleagues will all be going...
So why not right..??
Hmm...
But I am still excited over my March vacation...
Hopefully i can change my Annual Leave slot...
I really need a break before i break...

Workhaholic

Work has been really hectic and busy...

Turnover rates are super fast...

I'm like working 4 days(12 hours shift) consecutively..

Phew ...

tell me about it....

I looked as sick as the kids there....

*shakes head*

..................................

To the Abused Kid,

Rest in peace darling...

* Reciting Al-Fateha*

And to the Biological father of the kid,

It must have been really hard for you...

You looked so down and hopeless yesterday...

I feel you..

I am just speechless to talk about the Mom and so called 'Daddy'(Mom's Boyfriend) of the kid...

*roll eyes*

Where is the Love?

I was in the bus on my way home from my Night Shift...

I pondered upon the situation and try putting myself in their shoes...

I couldn't understand still...

Children are like the most precious gift from god...

You may say that i've not yet become a mother and i don't understand how it is

but my mom is a mother and no matter how bad situation goes,she never ever abuses her priviledge of being a parent...

same goes to my Dad...

But things doesn't works the same for this particular family...

The Scenario is:

A young parents with a 3 year old Kid...

The 3 yr old kid admitted in the A&E department,

Unconsious,pupils fixed and dilated,bruises all over.

Main diagnosis: Non-Accidental Child Abuse

The child looks really bad...

I was like holding back my tears when i saw the poor kid in that kind of condition...

I just couldn't understand the parents...

What 's with them...?Where is the Love..??

And whenever i see them along the corridor,

I feel like going up to them and just give a very disgusted look & curses...

I really tried my very best to understand their situation but it couldn't be that very bad right..??

I meant you always have the right to lay hands on your child if he misbehaves but there is always a limit right..??

where did all your patience gone to..??

This is really too much....

Now the child is like fighting for his life...

And i could sense that he will not be able to make it...

With all the Inotropes and ventilator support withdrawn,this poor kid will surely go...

Well at least he will be in heaven and not in the hell of his family...

I'm really sorry for my harsh words but i just couldn't help it..

It hurts me alot to see kids suffering and it hurts me more coz I'm very drawn to kids...

On a more positive note,

I feel so grateful to my parents for all the Love that they have showered me.

And i really think that these experiences being a nurse for the sick children will make me be a better parents in the future..

Insya Allah....

A new day starting from tomorrow.

I feel so at peace with myself now...
I learnt a lot hearing from what he says about my atitude...
I know where is my weakness,fault and flaws now...
We both learnt from our past relationship...
Well at least i cleared my mind off everything and willing to face life with strong faith and Love for my beloved family especially my dearest Mom...

I'm glad we finally meet and cleared all the misunderstandings that was left hanging for a moment...
You've been through what i was going tru for several times already and i think it is about time that you finally find the bliss and happiness in a relationship...
As for me,this experience is like an event for seeking and finding my inner strength...
And now, i also know the true meaning of Love-Sacrifice...
Sacrificial act for someone you love is the biggest thing you could do in order to make your loved ones and youself happy...

I'm now looking forward to live each day with the Love of my family and frens...
God-willing i will be able to meet my soulmate in time to come...
And now,I just want to dote on and pamper my mom coz i feel guilty for having to let her feel and bear the pain together with me for all this while...
I may not know really how it feels for a mother to see her crying daughter everyday but i am sure it is hurting...
and mom,you really don't deserve that....forgive me for that mom...
I could see how happy you was just now when you came back home with Dad and seeing me at the door with a smile on my face...

I just want to thank god for everything....
And i will continue to pray for the best of my family,his family,him and myself...
and although my Love wasn't fated to be,i feel so grateful that it is indeed a happy ending with a slightly different twist to the storyline...*smile*

Someone will always be a Memori Indah in my life...

Tomorrow is definitely gonna be a new day...

Mom's the best.

Conversation between Me and Mom early this morning
(Translated Version)
Mom:Why are your eyes swollen...?
Me: not enough sleep maybe...
Mom:But you're already asleep by 12 midnite which is not usually the case for you coz the earliest you would go to bed is around 1am...?
Me:I'm not feeling well...
Mom:Did you cried the whole night?
Me:*trying not to hear*
Mom: I saw you were stuck to the comp and then the next thing is i saw you were already in bed last night...
Me:*burst into tears* ( And then told mom about the mails)
Mom:Isn't it good? Someone you love is leading a happy life and will soon be settling down with his new partner that is fated for him...you are not fated for him and you cannot be sad about it...in this world,we are made for someone we are fated to be with and you have to accept that. You cannot keep on crying and be sad about it..it will not benefit you and it will also make him feel bad and guilty...don't do that to people dear,you must open up your heart and be willing to let go of the past and make everybody happy including yourself ok?
I know you still Love him...as your mom,i know you too well...you can always Love him but try to erase the feelings off as time goes by and try to open up your heart to someone who could Love you like how you would Love him...you can always pray everyday for your Loved ones but don't you forget to pray for yourself too...pray to god that you will be able to erase those feelings and that your Soulmate will come by soon...
Can you pls stop crying like a kid..?? Remember everything that i have just said...
Me:*nods head*Do you think it is okay for me to go and meet him to settle things for the last time..?
Mom: Please go...as soon as you get home from meeting him..i really hope eveything will be cleared off and you'll be better.
Me: I really hope for that too.
Mom:Ok,i'm going to work now..you have a gd rest at home or go out with your frens if you feel lonely ok ?
Me:*kiss her hand and both cheeks* i think i 'll just be at home..I just want to rest coz i'm working tomorrow..
Mom:Ok

Night Survivor.

I survived my Night...!!

It was peaceful....
I love working at night...
I could even find the time to read storybooks...
unlike my day shift,I can't even find a time to sit...!!
I'm loving my night shift for now...*grin*



Widest Sleepy Smile

Wider Sleepy Smile

Wide Sleepy Smile

Finally asleep @ 12 noon-6pm

To my own heart.

My heart,

Pls try to be strong and cast away all the pain,hurt and misery that has been coming in your way ok?
Pls try to recover quickly ok...?
Pls try to not make me cry always ok...??
Pls try to be less sensitive to stuffs ok...??
Pls pls pls to stop breaking yourself into pieces ok???
Pls don't shut yourself forever ok..???
And
Pls pls pls pls...let the past pass....pls...
Don't you feel hurt seeing me almost dying...?
So my heart,
Pls reconsider what i have just said ok....????

To readers:
Pardon me coz i'm just doing and intra-communication with my heart.

New Year,New stuffs.

I will start 12 hours shift tomorrow...like finally!!!
And to add thrill to it,my first slot is my Night shift!!
We shall see if i can survive.....


And I have already replied to his mail.....
Hope that will be fine...

I'm going out for a movie date with Mr Farhan AKA Abang Charming...LOL
and i hope you better not show your tired face coz today is suppose to be your sleeping
day after your night shift...and you are the one who wants to go out today ok... haha!

And to My bestie Ifa,
We'll go and find a laptop for you soon ok...
Maybe on Tuesday k ..
I miss you already....haha!!

Simply said.

*tearing*

the moment i saw your name...

but deep beneath my heart..

I utter a prayer of relief to know that you are doing fine

coz all this while i'm living life everyday with a prayer for your well-being...

As i already told myself that i dont want to intrude myself into your life anymore because

i know if i were to do that,i will never be able to let you go ...

If we are gonna meet,

I truly want to let it all off.

But

always in a peaceful,rational way.

It is always the solution to solve problems.

If we are not gonna meet,

it shall be what it has been...

as long as i know i do not disturb you and cause any inconvenience

and

as long as i know Love of my life is living happily-

I am always thankful for that..

As for now i'm just waiting for a reply from you...