Farewell Dinner.

Yesterday me and few of my colleagues had our farewell dinner for Shi Lin.

She is leaving to be back to her home country,China.

Well,she told me probably she will slack for few months then go to US or UK to work.

She got all my support!

Who would want to be stuck in this pathetic work area???

I can't wait to be out too!!

Well,all the best for your future endeavours Shi Lin.

Gonna miss you for sure.

We hope the farewell dinner could make as a memorable event for you when you're there in China... :)

P.S : Have i told you that after finish watching my 34 episodic drama of The Little Nyonya,I am now enjoying my Grey's Anatomy.I'm loving it.You see,this is one of the reason i always have to keep on skipping my jogging regime coz i'm stuck to the TV!! Ok after the grey's Anatomy ok..??Gotta drag this heavy butt of mine to work it out man!

oh geez...i'm resuming work tomoro! Damn it.

Back to where i started.

Left with only 2 days of my leave.
Resuming work on Monday.

Though my holiday this time round is spent just here in Singapore.
I'm glad and thankful i spent it well.

Many things has happened between me and Mus.
Well maybe just on my part coz' he always seems cool.
What is a problem to me is always nothing to him.
I really don't want to think about him anymore...
He just won't appreciate...
I've even written him a very long email since he always have to work and no time for us to meet.
In that email,i've told him abit bout my past and how i really feel now and that i want him to reply to me whenever he can to explain himself to me...
But he is being ignorant...
One day he will know how it feels to be me...

And on that account i have to admit that no Man has ever treated and Love me as well as Someone did.
I'm not comparing and i'm not expecting highly of a man but just basic actions that could tell me how sincere you really are.Actually,if you really are a sincere man like Someone is,you don't have to do much,just be yourself and your sincerity and love will get itself to me.

I will never be able to live my life with a person like Mus.
I will not be happy.
Unless he change.
But i don't expect him to change.
Its been almost a year and still i see no progress...
I will just slowly bring myself away from him...

Arrgghhh...
Not again......

I'm not gonna let myself drown in tears and be weak.
I wanna be a strong person like Yue-niang(The Little Nyonya).
Maybe i should open up a business selling Bird Nest...? LOL

This silent night.

Its already 2:07am...
All i could think about Someone...
He just appeared in my mind all of a sudden when i hear this song i am playing in my blog now...
I wonder what he is doing right now...
probably talking with his other half on the phone...
I'm kinda missing him actually...
Just miss how he used to be one so very special person in my life...

But
its all the old good memories...
Well...wishing him happiness always with his Loved ones.

I think i'm missing him becoz' my Lovey Mus has been busy..so busy actually

that i didn't even have the chance to tell him how lonely i am...

I dunno why..

I feel tired with always having to be the one showing my care and concern to him...

now he only calls me once a day or once every 2 days just to tell that he is home and tired...

i tried to be the most understanding person i could be but sometimes it is not worth it...

I dont even know if he even appreciates it.

for now i am just holding on for how long more i myself don't know...

i have suggested many times for us to go separate ways but he don't want and wants to change for the better....

i stayed on thinking that we could work it out slowly with patience and determination...

but it has been like so many times already....

Bi, do you even know how awful i feel?

And u should know how sincere i am towards you...

I pray everyday that you would change for the better and treat me the way i'm deserved to be treated.

I Love you like i always do and like i always told you...

I used to be the happiest girl in a relationship when i was with Someone but not now with Mus...

But not all happy relationship have a happy ending and not all unhappy relationship ends in an unhappy ending....

But on the part of the unhappiness you sometimes makes me the happiest,Bi...

thank you for that....

If we are not fated to be together,i will always remember u as a sweet,romantic,humorous,lean,muscular,fair,tall,mysterious special someone in my life.

Good nite and sleep tight baby.

Me-Time.

My Annual leave starts today.
No plans to travel though.
Need to save up for rainy days.
Gonna spent my leave mostly at home cleaning,cooking,decorating etc.

I feel ''sufocated" by everyone around me nowadays.
They come to you when they have problem and gone with the wind when they're having good times!!
It is probably about time i think more about myself first rather then putting others before me.
Poor me.
More ME-time please.

Welcome 2009.

My new year's eve started as early as 630am.
I went to settle some problems with my cuzzie before i got home at abot 12 noon
Rested for awhile and then at about 8pm,met up with Wani for our sorta "private party."

Bestie didn't turn up last minute.Fine.

I was actually not in the mood.

My plan to meet up with Nurisham also was cancelled coz i don't want to pull a long face when i meet up with him.

Sorry awak.

And so Wani and me headed to Breeks to hav our dinner before we met up with Fairuz and company for our mini party at Clarke quay.

We sat down by the river in a circular manner and played UNO cards.

While some of them gulped down alcoholic,i just do my own stuffs coz i dun really know some of them.

Luckily,Wani and I decided to walk around and then we hit the Bungy Bar.

It was really cool.Wani had her Bikini Martini while i had my Orange Juice as usual. LOL.

We dance for a bit coz the songs was really good got us grooving to the beats.

We headed back to our spot and join the company again for some chit chats,jokes and more card games before we call it a day.

Welcome 2009.

Hopefully a better year for us all.

Insya allah.

Amin.

My Cheat Day.

Today is my cheat day.

Cheat day as in i get to eat my favorit food and indulge in sinful deserts.

Tomoro i shall be back with my diet.

Met up with bestie for threading and then head up to PS for our Manhattan Fish!

It was our first time.

But we still prefer Fish & Co.

But i really Love their Manhattan Mudpie.

Shioookk...

Tomorrow i will be running some errands for my cousins in the morning.

In the evening,I will probably wait up for Wani's updates on any plans for New Year's party.

Probably just hit somewhere to chill out.

If not,I'll probly stay at home.

Welcome 2009!

A toast to a better year everyone!

Cheers!

New Year.New Hope.

Happy Belated X'mas to all.
I was working for the past 3 days and i'm working for another 2 more days before i have a 4 straight days off during the New Year.
And guess wat?
I just came back from my annual leave right?
Believe it or not i'm going on leave again from the 9 january!
But for sure i'm not going anywhere this time.
I want to save money ley...
Going bankrupt liao.
I will think of a way i could beneficially spend my upcoming annual leave la.

My new year resolution is:
1)Save $$$
2)Lose weight (Although i always gain it back!)
3)Eat healthily
4)Be Less emotional and more practical. :)
5)Start planning for my future as in my career path.
6)Resume back my Class 3 license(Probably)
7)Take more pulic transport rather than Taxis.
8)Be more religious.
9)Aim for lesser mistakes at work.
10)Still wanna have fun!

That is my list of stuff right now.
The list could be extended if needed hor. ;)

Back from Malacca.

Been and back from my 3 days 2 nights Malacca trip

with Kak Midah and her daughter,Amira.

I must say the hotel we stayed in is great.

Very comfortable,moderately luxurious and good service.

We went to a lot of places.The Eye on Malaysia (Melaka),

The Christ Church,Jonker's Street,River Cruise,Mahkota Parade etc.

In overall I must say that this is really a place

rich in its Heritage and Culture.I do not want to come back home coz'

I hate the idea of going back to work on

Wednesday after i had a long 12 days leave!

Off to Malacca.

Will be going away for a short trip to Malacca from 19th to 21st of this month.
Will be back for updates yea...
Hopefully i'll enjoy my time with Kak Midah and her daughter,Amira.
We gonna have All-Girls-Trip this time...
Girls just wanna have fun! :)

Oh yes,i want to start my exercise regime once i'm back from this trip.

It has to go.

Obesity not only kills our health but our self-esteem too.


I want to lose weight...
I'm putting on more weight each day...
It is really getting out of control...
I better start my Exercise regime before i burst like the balloon!!
And i really want to kick the habit of over-eating when i'm depressed...
That habit has to go man!
If not because of that habit,i would have reached my ideal weight now...hmmph!
And guys is always the reason i got into depression!~
Must put a STOP to that...
Come on Yati!
You can do it!
Way to go!

Where do i belong?

Maybe i should walk it all alone back again....

My Lovey Mus is not at all lovely anymore..
He makes me fall for him and then he takes everything for granted...
He never worries about anything...
He is 24 hours busy with work...i supposed he is...
We never ever go out in the day...!
Its always meeting up for a short while in the late night...
I have tried to understand his work but he never ever think of how i feel...
Not fair...
His actions just made me doubt him...
Sacrifices made for him are just meaningless to him i guess...
He never wants to share his problems..
Reason he gave was that he doesnt want to bother me with his problems...
Imagine knowing each other for almost a year yet i feel like i'm no one to him..
See how strange that is right..?
Many times i 've tried to end things with him but he insists that he loves me and needs me in his life..
But why can't you change for the better..???
I don't get you...really...
I wonder if i should give you anymore chances...
Guys guys guys......!!
Doesn't mean the number of women in this world is higher than that of men,you people can take our Love for granted you know!!

Miss World 2008.

Miss Kseniya Sukhinova-Russia
(Crowned as Miss World 2008)

Miss Ana Gabriella-Mexico
(My personal favorit!)

I was online in the evening just now and was browsing thru' the Miss world official site.
I studied the contestants and thought that my favorit is Miss Mexico.
She is darn gorgeous!
And so at about 1230am,
I went to watch the Miss world live on channel 5 and thought my Miss Mexico is in the top 5.
Sadly No....
I dunno why....
But my favorit among the 5 is Miss Russia of course!
But i was glad though that Miss South Africa didn't win as i find her a bit too over-confident.The judges made the right choice for choosing Miss Russia.She is very sweet and elegant.
And i could sense that she is genuine.
I so like her blue evening dress! So flowy....
But i still think my Miss Mexico is gorgeous!

Anyone can help me collect?

I don't know how now.
I'm going JB for seafood with my colleagues on the 12th.
But,i just received the letter for collection of my passport today..
On Monday is Public Holiday.
I worked morning shifts for the next 3 consecutive days..!
How to collect????
Arrgh..!

And,
the weather now is super nice...
Heavy rain,dark clouds and no thunder..!
A great way to snuggle in bed!
Hahaa!
Actually,I was thinking about what Lovey has told me the other night.
He wanted to go Bintan with me near end of this month.
But he always say but never do!
And so i dont want to think about it.
I will be going Malacca with Kak Mid & her daughter anyway!! :)
I'm going to be a bankrupt soon!!
*sobs*

Get away from my Migraine.

I had fun today.
I was on MC yesterday due to my Migraine.
Stayed at home and rest for the whole day and met up with Mus at night after his work.
Went to meet my Kak Mid today to get our bus ticket to Malacca on the 19th of this month.
Going for a short trip.
Then we head down to Royal plaza on scotts for our high tea and then off to karaoke...
Had an enjoable evening..
Thanks kak Mid.

Summary of my absence from Blogger.

• Been and back from Bangkok, Thailand.
• Stressed out with work due to JCI Audit.
• JCI Audit is over last week.
• Noorhisham is getting engaged,congrats.
• Mus and me are doing fine.
• Mom is ending work soon=Full-time housewife.
• Been planning out on working in Dubai.

I cant,I miss u blogger.

I can't coz i miss you blogger.
I still think ur the best actually..
I get all the privacy here but not in multiply...
I got all anonymous readers there but here only people who are close to me knows abt it...
I guess i will come back here..
I admit that there's loads of sad posts here but it the fact right and i can't change it...
If i change it then it wont be real...
I miss you blogger..
Sorry that i left you for awhile....
I will stay on for sure...
I promise...

Today is the beginning of my annual leave again.
I'm not going anywhere this time round.
Like you know,one of my resolution this year is to save money.
I wanna have a sum of money to prepare for my rainy days.
My colleagues has been bugging me to take a part-time degree but i
dont think that is my ultimate priority for now.
And I met with someone new..his name is Ady Ahmari..
a nice chap i must say..
We had a long night learning about each other's past and basically getting to know each other.
I enjoyed his company and find his presence as somewhat nice :)
I hope we could last and make good company for each other :)
I don't want to put any heart into this..
coz he clearsly says he is not into any kind of a relationship...
i understood and agreed.
Cheers to us.

The End.

To all my avid readers,
I will not be blogging here anymore.
When i read back all my previous post,
I noticed too many sad posts.
So Emo...


I'm starting to blog @ multiply.
Much fun there.

Thank you.
Goodbye Blogger.

Cancelled.

Moral of the story:
Don't plan ahead.

Holiday with Bestie is cancelled.
She just don't feel like going.
Fine.
Holiday with Family is also most probaby gonna be cancelled coz' Mom don't feel like going as she is fearful of the Monsoon season.
Sigh.
I feel like going holiday alone la.
Luckily,I am going to Bangkok next week.
But what am i gonna do during my leave?
I have to go somewhere.
Somewhere out of Singapore.
And guess what?
I can't wait for my bond to end.
1 year plus to go before i could say Bubbye to them all...
Pls pls...quickened the time....
I'm getting sick of everything here.

Hurt.

I hope I am wrong...
But it clearly shows it is so right...
How could you....
I'm so dissapointed with you...
So so hurt...