My Cheat Day.

Today is my cheat day.

Cheat day as in i get to eat my favorit food and indulge in sinful deserts.

Tomoro i shall be back with my diet.

Met up with bestie for threading and then head up to PS for our Manhattan Fish!

It was our first time.

But we still prefer Fish & Co.

But i really Love their Manhattan Mudpie.

Shioookk...

Tomorrow i will be running some errands for my cousins in the morning.

In the evening,I will probably wait up for Wani's updates on any plans for New Year's party.

Probably just hit somewhere to chill out.

If not,I'll probly stay at home.

Welcome 2009!

A toast to a better year everyone!

Cheers!

New Year.New Hope.

Happy Belated X'mas to all.
I was working for the past 3 days and i'm working for another 2 more days before i have a 4 straight days off during the New Year.
And guess wat?
I just came back from my annual leave right?
Believe it or not i'm going on leave again from the 9 january!
But for sure i'm not going anywhere this time.
I want to save money ley...
Going bankrupt liao.
I will think of a way i could beneficially spend my upcoming annual leave la.

My new year resolution is:
1)Save $$$
2)Lose weight (Although i always gain it back!)
3)Eat healthily
4)Be Less emotional and more practical. :)
5)Start planning for my future as in my career path.
6)Resume back my Class 3 license(Probably)
7)Take more pulic transport rather than Taxis.
8)Be more religious.
9)Aim for lesser mistakes at work.
10)Still wanna have fun!

That is my list of stuff right now.
The list could be extended if needed hor. ;)

Back from Malacca.

Been and back from my 3 days 2 nights Malacca trip

with Kak Midah and her daughter,Amira.

I must say the hotel we stayed in is great.

Very comfortable,moderately luxurious and good service.

We went to a lot of places.The Eye on Malaysia (Melaka),

The Christ Church,Jonker's Street,River Cruise,Mahkota Parade etc.

In overall I must say that this is really a place

rich in its Heritage and Culture.I do not want to come back home coz'

I hate the idea of going back to work on

Wednesday after i had a long 12 days leave!

Off to Malacca.

Will be going away for a short trip to Malacca from 19th to 21st of this month.
Will be back for updates yea...
Hopefully i'll enjoy my time with Kak Midah and her daughter,Amira.
We gonna have All-Girls-Trip this time...
Girls just wanna have fun! :)

Oh yes,i want to start my exercise regime once i'm back from this trip.

It has to go.

Obesity not only kills our health but our self-esteem too.


I want to lose weight...
I'm putting on more weight each day...
It is really getting out of control...
I better start my Exercise regime before i burst like the balloon!!
And i really want to kick the habit of over-eating when i'm depressed...
That habit has to go man!
If not because of that habit,i would have reached my ideal weight now...hmmph!
And guys is always the reason i got into depression!~
Must put a STOP to that...
Come on Yati!
You can do it!
Way to go!

Where do i belong?

Maybe i should walk it all alone back again....

My Lovey Mus is not at all lovely anymore..
He makes me fall for him and then he takes everything for granted...
He never worries about anything...
He is 24 hours busy with work...i supposed he is...
We never ever go out in the day...!
Its always meeting up for a short while in the late night...
I have tried to understand his work but he never ever think of how i feel...
Not fair...
His actions just made me doubt him...
Sacrifices made for him are just meaningless to him i guess...
He never wants to share his problems..
Reason he gave was that he doesnt want to bother me with his problems...
Imagine knowing each other for almost a year yet i feel like i'm no one to him..
See how strange that is right..?
Many times i 've tried to end things with him but he insists that he loves me and needs me in his life..
But why can't you change for the better..???
I don't get you...really...
I wonder if i should give you anymore chances...
Guys guys guys......!!
Doesn't mean the number of women in this world is higher than that of men,you people can take our Love for granted you know!!

Miss World 2008.

Miss Kseniya Sukhinova-Russia
(Crowned as Miss World 2008)

Miss Ana Gabriella-Mexico
(My personal favorit!)

I was online in the evening just now and was browsing thru' the Miss world official site.
I studied the contestants and thought that my favorit is Miss Mexico.
She is darn gorgeous!
And so at about 1230am,
I went to watch the Miss world live on channel 5 and thought my Miss Mexico is in the top 5.
Sadly No....
I dunno why....
But my favorit among the 5 is Miss Russia of course!
But i was glad though that Miss South Africa didn't win as i find her a bit too over-confident.The judges made the right choice for choosing Miss Russia.She is very sweet and elegant.
And i could sense that she is genuine.
I so like her blue evening dress! So flowy....
But i still think my Miss Mexico is gorgeous!

Anyone can help me collect?

I don't know how now.
I'm going JB for seafood with my colleagues on the 12th.
But,i just received the letter for collection of my passport today..
On Monday is Public Holiday.
I worked morning shifts for the next 3 consecutive days..!
How to collect????
Arrgh..!

And,
the weather now is super nice...
Heavy rain,dark clouds and no thunder..!
A great way to snuggle in bed!
Hahaa!
Actually,I was thinking about what Lovey has told me the other night.
He wanted to go Bintan with me near end of this month.
But he always say but never do!
And so i dont want to think about it.
I will be going Malacca with Kak Mid & her daughter anyway!! :)
I'm going to be a bankrupt soon!!
*sobs*

Get away from my Migraine.

I had fun today.
I was on MC yesterday due to my Migraine.
Stayed at home and rest for the whole day and met up with Mus at night after his work.
Went to meet my Kak Mid today to get our bus ticket to Malacca on the 19th of this month.
Going for a short trip.
Then we head down to Royal plaza on scotts for our high tea and then off to karaoke...
Had an enjoable evening..
Thanks kak Mid.

Summary of my absence from Blogger.

• Been and back from Bangkok, Thailand.
• Stressed out with work due to JCI Audit.
• JCI Audit is over last week.
• Noorhisham is getting engaged,congrats.
• Mus and me are doing fine.
• Mom is ending work soon=Full-time housewife.
• Been planning out on working in Dubai.

I cant,I miss u blogger.

I can't coz i miss you blogger.
I still think ur the best actually..
I get all the privacy here but not in multiply...
I got all anonymous readers there but here only people who are close to me knows abt it...
I guess i will come back here..
I admit that there's loads of sad posts here but it the fact right and i can't change it...
If i change it then it wont be real...
I miss you blogger..
Sorry that i left you for awhile....
I will stay on for sure...
I promise...

Today is the beginning of my annual leave again.
I'm not going anywhere this time round.
Like you know,one of my resolution this year is to save money.
I wanna have a sum of money to prepare for my rainy days.
My colleagues has been bugging me to take a part-time degree but i
dont think that is my ultimate priority for now.
And I met with someone new..his name is Ady Ahmari..
a nice chap i must say..
We had a long night learning about each other's past and basically getting to know each other.
I enjoyed his company and find his presence as somewhat nice :)
I hope we could last and make good company for each other :)
I don't want to put any heart into this..
coz he clearsly says he is not into any kind of a relationship...
i understood and agreed.
Cheers to us.

The End.

To all my avid readers,
I will not be blogging here anymore.
When i read back all my previous post,
I noticed too many sad posts.
So Emo...


I'm starting to blog @ multiply.
Much fun there.

Thank you.
Goodbye Blogger.

Cancelled.

Moral of the story:
Don't plan ahead.

Holiday with Bestie is cancelled.
She just don't feel like going.
Fine.
Holiday with Family is also most probaby gonna be cancelled coz' Mom don't feel like going as she is fearful of the Monsoon season.
Sigh.
I feel like going holiday alone la.
Luckily,I am going to Bangkok next week.
But what am i gonna do during my leave?
I have to go somewhere.
Somewhere out of Singapore.
And guess what?
I can't wait for my bond to end.
1 year plus to go before i could say Bubbye to them all...
Pls pls...quickened the time....
I'm getting sick of everything here.

Hurt.

I hope I am wrong...
But it clearly shows it is so right...
How could you....
I'm so dissapointed with you...
So so hurt...

Bad Night.

Last night at work sucks.
I was given 2 patients to nurse.
But problem is,both patients are intubated!
And my Bed 10 patient collapse in the middle of the morning!
I was dancing away like a mad women the whole shift from beginning til the end of my 12 hours shift!
One bed needs frequent suctioning,frequent corrective replacement,tube feeding and changing of diaper.
Another bed is freaking not stable. I had to assist in intubation with that freaking irritating cum action -bagos -tapi -tak -bagos Doctor!Luckily another doctor came by and finally suceeded with the intubation with just one try.That was not the end.This irritating doc have to spoil my night la.He took hours to set IV plug and IA line..fair enough... the patient have difficult venous access but you don't have to be irritating can?? If you want to order or ask for something,make it in a more polite way and think before you talk!!! I don't have 5 hands and 4 legs ok!And i'm not your maid!!!I don't mind if i'm nursing only one patient but hello!I'm nursing 2 patients and my another patient needs my attention too!
I though things are settling down at about 245am...as i was about to write my freaking report for my bed 9,I suddenly saw my bed 10 struggling..I went closer,saw secretions in its oral cavity,I quickly grab the suction.As i suction superficially,the patient just desat and then went into asystole...without wasting a second,I shouted for help while I grab the air viva bag and started bagging the patient,my colleague ran in and started chest compressions.It took us almost 30 mins to revive the patient back..we all almost thought that the patient has gone.After 5 doses of Adrenaline,continuous chest compressions and bagging,the patient came back.then,started inotropes and all. And at that very hour,the doc wanted to set a central line coz of difficult venous access.As expected of him,the doc failed to set the line!! aarrgghh....!I was really very thankful that my code nurse helped me alot.If not because of her,I would have broke down and leave my workplace coz I was freaking stressed up and irritated.I kept dancing like a mad women till 7 am when my colleague for the next shift came by...I was really speechless that I havent write a word for my report and that freaking irritating doc kept ordering corrective infusions and blood transfusions for my two patients..one after another!!I passed over to my colleagues taking over as properly as possible..My nursing manager saw me and was shocked to see that i' still not home yet. I just looked at them expressionlessly and said i have not done with my report.After i cleared all my stuffs and do my report.It was already 9am when i supposed to go back home at 7am...Haiz..Bad night.

My Deepavali Outing.

My close buddies and me went out today since noon till 10 pm.

We treated ourself to a movie,karaoke session,food and more food...!

I even got a chance to shop for my Origin facial product although i'm out with two guys.

They got no prob in following me and Kak Midah to shop around,coz we understands each other needs..Man are man...woman are woman lor..

We sang our heart out at Cash box studio before we call it a day....phew! tired but worth the fun!

Actually today was meant to be a Hari Raya outing among our CICU colleagues but due to some problem,they have to cancel it..I'm happy it was cancelled though. :)

Dream Marathon??

FYI,it has been quite awhile since i had a dream when i'm asleep.
I dunno why actually.
But last night was different.
I was very tired as i did not sleep after my night shift.
I went out with my family and only got home at around 9pm.
By then,I was truly exhausted.
I fell asleep from 10 pm till 1pm today.
Imagine that??
I had a dream marathon.
One dream after the other!
Gosh..and the dreams are all so random la..
I have never thought of them previously but i dreamt of them like i just met them the day before lor...

The first dream was about Someone...
Ok ok...i am really,truly,frankly saying that i have gotten over him for so long and hav been able to get him out of my head for some time already...
But i dreamt not only bout him,but his mom and his bro too!
It was really weird.
The dream was like this:
It was Hari Raya still...
Me and my family went visiting to our relative's houses.
Then,it was actually this last house that we went before we wanted to call it a day.
When we reached the place,as usual,we greeted ''assalammualaikum'' at the doorstep while i heard a very noisy background of peeps talking and laughing.
We then went in when our relative offered us in.
I was damn shocked when i saw Someone's mom.
She looked very happy and was smiling so sweetly to me.
She held her hand asking me to hug her.
I went closer,kissed her hand and hugged her.
I saw tears in her eyes.
I didn't say anything coz i was too shocked to see her there in my relative's place.
Then i heard a familiar voice...
"Mummy! where do i put this stuffs??"
I saw Someone...
We were both shocked..
We couldnt utter a word..
Then i suddenly acted like i know him for ages..
''Hey Someone! *with a super friendly-buddy tone*what are u doing here..?"
He replied to me with his super friendly-buddy tone too saying that he is just a tenant in the house..will stay there for few months before they head back to Perth next yr...
I just nodded with a smile..
and he replied with a smile..
Then i turned around and saw his bro...
Aww...he looked so ''abang-abang'' now..as good-looking as his Abang i must say..
Dayat smiled very widely to me...
I just laughed and giggle coz of his adorable-ness... :)
I turned back to Someone's Mom and still saw her serene smile...
I went closer to her and told her not to tear...
She just replied saying how much she misses me...
I just hugged her again and told her that i miss her too...
Then,Someone came and sat close beside me and do some ketchups with each other..
We talk like nothing has happened between us...*I wish i could be how i was in my dream*
I managed to tease Someone's bro too...
asking him whether he already has a galfren..
He just smiled cheekily... haha!
Then, i woke up from my sleep.................
What was that????? I wondered to myself...
I just uttered some prayers wishing that they are all doing good and then went back to sleep coz i was really tired.
My body was aching.

Not long after,
I had another long dream...
I dreamt of Didicazli.
Yes the local Malay Singer...
I have never thought of him or liked him...
He have never crossed my mind since Forever lor....
I dreamt that he made performance in my school..
And it was my primary school!! Haha!
He performed and had his eyes on me as i was the one sitting on the front rows..
He sang and focused on me..
He then went down from the stage and went closer in my direction...
He approached me and sang his heart out to me...
His voice was really nice and soothing in my dream..
I was really mesmerized by how he looks at me..
We were drowning in each other's eyes...
He then held me closer and kissed me on my forehead...
weird thing is although it was a school event,no one stopped us from making that lovey-dovey scene...
I see many students and teachers around me but they r just there to fill up the empty spaces i guess...
Then Didicazli whispered something in my ear..
I couldn't hear him and was trying my best to make him repeat but i had to wake up from that dream...
Haiz.........
It felt really real for both of the dreams....
I never thought i was in a dream..
I woke up really teary for my first dream and hearbeat was really rapid when i woke up from my second dream...
So,do you think this is indeed a 'dream' marathon..???
*laughed to myself*

Too many trips.

I need more rest..
I only have two days off after 3 consecutive working days.
I feel very fatigue.
I need vitamin supplement.

Meet up with bestie today.
Accompanied her to SIM to enrol for her Degree course.
Then headed to town to have our lunch.
We are so like old grandmothers.
Everything also tired.
Probably we are just tired of walking around Singapore.
haha!
We decided to slack around at Starbucks Wisma.
We were discussing about where to go this coming December.
I suggested Sabah to bestie.
I wanna see Mount Kinabalu!
Bestie asked me to find out more about it.
I find Sabah very attractive with its flora and fauna.
I did my research and already smsed bestie regarding the price.
I hope bestie coud get a same date as my leave slot and agrees to my suggestion.
Bestie,purrleeease...?? :)

And oh yes,
I'm going to the travel agency this weekend to book a short vacation to either Tioman or Langkawi with my family.
Gonna have a family vacation in my December annual leave slot too.
I hope i am able to squeeze my trips into my slot.
And 3 more weeks to my Bangkok getaway.
:)


And did i tell you that my bro thought i am crazy coz i'm travelling out too frequently.
FYI,travelling is my new Love.
*wink*

Those were beautiful memories.

I am like really drained out with work.

When i woke up from my sleep post night shift,

I went over to my Beloved Lappy and start to browse old photos from my thumbdrive.

Then i saw pictures of my past.

So sweet i thought.

Here you go...

When i was with Someone

When i was with Muhd Azhar.

Aww..... :)

This is so random.

I'm hungry now.

Need to fill up my tank.